Embracing My Shepherd [COMPLETED]

Chapter 20

TW:Curses, gun shots,

Extinguish...

If I die now who will look for me?

"Gabi na. Ihahatid na kita." I blinked twice before nodding.

"Dito na lang po." Saad ko sa tricycle nang makita ang subdivision. Bumaba na kaming dalawa at nag lakad papasok nang subdivision.

This time the silence wasn't awkward anymore. We were just walking as the sky above us shine because of the stars...  I smiled as the cold wind blew some of my hair strands.

"Maivann..." I whispered.

"Hmm?"

Huminga muna ako nang malalim, I was hesitating if I would tell him my concern... gusto ko lang naman malaman...

"Paano mo nagagawa 'yon?" I asked quietly.

I saw him glanced at me.

"Do what?" He asked.

I breathe before continuing.

"Iyung kahit hindi ka sumigaw sumusunod agad 'yung mga kaklase natin sa'yo..." samantalang kapag ako 'yung nag sasaway ginagawa nilang biro... gusto ko pa sana 'yon idagdag ngunit ayoko namang mag mukhang kawawa.

"I don't know... takot sila sa akin e." He joked kaya napairap ako.

Walang kwentang kausap...

"Siguro dahil sa presensiya mo." I answered my own question dahilan na mapalingon ito sa akin.

"You think so?" Tumango ako bago nag patuloy sa pagsasalita.

"Nakakatakot kaya ang presensya mo. Lalo na kapag bad mood ka or what, ramdam naming lahat." I said and nod as if I was agreeing to myself. 

"Why? Hindi ba sila takot sa'yo?" He asked, nakakunot noo akong napatingin sa kaniya.

"Bakit naman sila matatakot sa akin?" I asked.

"Lalapitan ka palang nila sisimangot at kukunot na agad ang noo mo." He describe making my eyes grew bigger.

"Hoy!" He chuckled kaya inirapan ko ito. "Paano hindi sisimangot e' puro kalokohan 'yung pinagsasabi!" Reklamo ko rito.

We fell into silence again, but this time it wasn't awkward anymore.

That night wherein he was humming a song as I feel the cold wind brushes against our skin, The shiny night sky and the word he told me before I enter our house.

One thing I know about him is he's different kapag kaming dalawa ang magkasama. I couldn't explain the difference it just felt that way.

"See you tomorrow, rei."

I smiled painfully when I remembered our last conversations. Sadly there's no more tomorrow.

What will he do if he finds out I'm dead? Will he be sad? Or will he be happy that I'm not there to compete with him anymore. Siguro magiging masaya siya kasi wala nang sakit sa ulo.

Sila rain kaya? Will they be happy? They must be happy if they'll find out I'm dead. Hindi na nila iisipin kung paano nila ako isasama sa gala nila. Kasi wala na. Hindi na pwede.

I smiled painfully when I realized how much of a burden I was. Maybe I've hurt them too. If only I could apologize to them before I go.

I tried to look up and saw that there was a window in front of me. I could see the sky pouring as it roars.