Chapter 28
"Whoa," Chris finally said something after watching me rant on FaceTime for about fifteen minutes, "all this happened last night?"
"Yup."
Last night was a lot for me, really.
It really did hurt having to go through all that; accepting that I wasn't even close to getting over Dean and having that semi-outburst in the parking lot. There were so many things I wanted to say but held back from doing so because it would've been too painful.
Don't even get me started on the look on his face. I wasn't a fool. It was obvious that he was affected as well by the entire thing. Which was what I didn't understand, if he was so in love with his girlfriend, why was he here giving me all these mixed signals? Letting me be his 'tour-guide' and show him special places in the city. Why was he here letting himself get close to me again? I just didn't get it.
Harry was literally God-sent last night though. He got me home safe and stayed with me a bit till he was certain that I was okay. At one point, I just wanted to ball my eyes out but I promised myself that I wouldn't cry for anything concerning Dean so I just had to thug it out.
Harry eventually had to leave and of course, I couldn't stop thanking him for all he did. I wasn't sure when I fell asleep but I woke up feeling like shit and also, with quite the headache. I stayed on my bed for about 45 minutes, simply thinking about everything that happened until I couldn't any longer and just got up and decided to eat something.
While I was fixing up a lazy breakfast, I FaceTimed Chris and went on a full rant about everything.
"That's a lot really." Chris said, probably still processing what I told him.
"Yeah, so basically, I know it may sound crazy, but I, uh-" I took in a deep breath, "I still have feelings for Dean."
Chris let out the fakest gasp you could think of and said in the most sarcastic tone, "Wow, that's crazy. I would never have guessed this entire time."
"Screw you, Chris."
He chuckled, "I knew you never really got over Dean. Why do you think I was trying to play Cupid so bad? But you just tried to hide behind your whole 'I'm a bad bitch' facade."
"Playing match maker wasn't going to help." I told him, clearing up the counter where I had made the pancake mix. "Besides, Harry says acceptance is the first step to moving on."
"Screw moving on, okay?" Chris laid emphasis on his words. "I say go get your man back."
"He's with Amber." I reminded him.
"So?" He raised an eyebrow. "You saw him first."
I couldn't help but laugh at that, "Yeah, and then I let him go. For over two years."
"Well, you've come to your senses now." He said.
"I feel it'd have been easier if it was just someone that he wasn't serious with, you know? But their relationship seems to actually have meaning." I shrugged. "I don't know, it just doesn't feel right."
"I didn't see any 'meaning' when I saw them together, all I saw was a stiff couple." Chris aired his thoughts.
So he sensed it too.
"I don't get why you're overthinking this." Chris spoke again. "Dean didn't hesitate to steal you from Kyle back then."
I made a face, "Okay, first of all, bad reference. Kyle and I were never really official."
"But you guys had a thing going on and he was in love with you."
"Yeah, but we were never like, boyfriend and girlfriend." I told him. "Besides, Dean was in the picture way before I met Kyle."
