Love & death: Feel it all

The devil in disguise

I writhe in Bill's arm, trying frantically to get out of his grip.

"I need to save her! Bill!!!" I shout at him, knowing now why he feels so guilty. He knows he can't save Cassie from the devil that's his brother, and he doesn't want me to get hurt trying. I get it. But I'm a mother, and trying and saving and failing is what I do. And I have to try.

"Scar... Tom hasn't changed. He won't spare her and if you come between him and Cassie right now... you are going to die too. And I can't let that happen. I'll have to kill Tom." Bill tells me. I look deeply into his eyes trying to find a lie, but he's completely truthful. I stop moving and trying to get out of his grip, I just turn around so we're face to face.

"Tom won't kill me. You didn't see how he reacted... in his room. I do something to him that no other woman can apparently... he won't kill me Bill. Trust me on this." I tell him, holding his face in my hands. He looks me in the eyes trying to find out whether I'm lying or if I actually believ what I said. And then he nods and lets go of my body.

I shoot for the door with Bill right behind me, but when I get outside, Tom is already on the dirt trying to drag Cassie back to him. She's on the dirt screaming, laying flat out on the ground trying to reach for something to pull her away from him. But Tom holds her legs and tries to pull her back.

For a short moment, Cassie looks back at Tom and I see her face. He beat her up good. One of her eyes is completely layered over with blood from a very hard punch as well as a big gash in her forehead. Her nose looks broken and her neck is red and purple. He must have tried to strangle her, and by the looks of Tom's hands, she dug her nails deep enough into him to make him let go.

"TOM!" I shout, feeling just like I did back when I was completely new. I remember the nightmare I had about the first girls when Bill took me in. All of them are dead now, because of me. Gustav and Georg have changed for the better. Bill has gone soft while we were away, and now he's back to his old self once I'm not there. And Tom... I can't tell if he's worse or the same.

The one thing that hasn't changed, is the girls. Crystal, Tiffany and Cassie. They will die if I don't do anything. I have to try.

"Bill... give me your gun. NOW!" I shout which startles him enough to give me the gun. I point it just above Tom's head with slightly shaking hands. It's not the first time I've pointed a gun at him, but this time I plan on not just threatening him.
I pull the trigger with a loud bang and the sound of dirt splashing. Everything goes quiet for a moment and all I hear is Cassie panting and Tom crawling backwards away from Cassie. I follow Tom wth the gun until he's standing up straight.

"Scar... put down the gun." Tom says, slowly trying to get closer to me. I can feel how tense Bill is behind me when he doesn't have his decorated silver gun in hand.
Cassie has curled up in a ball, too scared to run when she has the chance. And this is not the time for me to shout at her.

"Promise me you won't touch Cassie if I do." I say, knowing that I can now tell when he lies. His lips turn to a paper thin line and his eyes filled with fiery anger. There's no way he's gonna promise me that.

"Put down the gun." He repeats taking another step closer to me. I don't do as he says, I point it straight at his forehead, and he stops walking.

Suddenly, he becomes almost calm. His bacl straightens instead of the slight hunch over when his muscles all tensed.

The time feels like it goes slower and faster at the same time. I feel Bill's hands wrap around my waist and I barely see Tom's hand reach for something in his belt before Bill throws me to the ground and a gunshot bangs, ringing in my ears. I look up from the dirt and see Tom with his black gun pointed at Bill. In the matter of seconds, the gun falls out of his hand as Bill collapses and dirt flies around him.

"No... NO!" Tom shouts, running over to Bill who's laying on the dirt with panick on his face. I was too slow to comprehend what happened, but once I see Tom's reaction, I know. Tom shot Bill.

Bill is trying to reach for his shoulder with the opposite hand while blood starts to color the dirt. Tom grabs Bill's hand and throws it away, putting his own hands over the wound. I jump up from my spot on the ground and lean over Bill's body.
Bill turns to look at me, and the panick in his eyes fade into something else. Something so close to sorrow that I almost think that he's just sad. But it's not that.

"I'm sorry..." He whispers to me and his black shades eyelids flicker.

"Bill... no, nononono... stay with me... please. Bill!" I exclaim and grab his face in my hands, trying to make him keep his eyes open.

"Scar... help me get him up. NOW!" Tom shouts, and as if on cue, another car pulls into the alley where we are all gathered around Bill. It's Gustav's car.

"What happened!?!" Gustav shouts, Crystal following his tracks.

"I hit him in the shoulder. Get him to a hopsital!" Tom says, looking just as panicked as I do. I was starting to think that Bill and Tom didn't care for each other at all. I remember what the girl who worked for Tom told me in germany. I always thought twins had like this special bond. Maybe she was right. I didn't think about it back then, and I haven't thought about it until now. Bill and Tom have to love each other. They have been together since they shared the space in their mothers womb.

No matter how much it seems like they don't care for each other and are fighting for my love all the time, they love each other.

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