I scream and no one hears it

45.It's not ending

I have this constant urge of screaming loud enough to have my heart exploded

or may be the entire planet, I want this all to end,

either there is loss of appetite or urge to eat more and more,

my eyes are either too big or everything is too blurry to be viewed,

my lungs are heavy, I try to gasp air and there is alot of it and there's nothing of it,

my heart, it's constantly telling me that I am a loser,

my neurons are adding into it,

my skin is stressing over it and showing it's stress by ugly acne and its marks,

I am ugly, I have always been one but now I am losing my human form too,

My heart is always on fire,

I don't even have a single moment of peace.

I wake up midnight, panicking over nothing,

there is literally nothing.

But, I am drenched in sweats, tremors in hands and a pounding heart.

A pounding heart, that will come out of my chest any time sooner

But, it never comes out.

Instead it sends the constant fire it is on to every organ it supplies blood to,

It whispers my secrets to every organ.

And then, my head hurts, my stomach hurts and every joint and every muscle of my body hurts.