Bad Idea! *Ellie Williams*

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Willow's pov

Things between Ellie and I had been...weird. We were between this weird state of bittersweetness. She was nicer than usual but she still often flirted with other girls. Oh did I mention I officially joined the band? That's how I saw her flirt most the time. The lust filled eyes of random girls who'd come up to our group begging for Ellie's attention. Some came after me as well but I had no interest. I was done playing games.
At the same time I didn't want to seem desperate and needy. Being in the band meant a lot of parties, like a lot. It was beginning to affect my work at the bar.

My face showed exhaustion from staying up late at night only to sleep a few hours and clock in. But I was trying to make it work. I didn't want to disappoint Gladys but I was also really enjoying the band. We made a decent amount of money preforming here and there. Id never imagined they had as many bookings and so I ultimately decided to leave the bar. Gladys was sad to see me leave but in her words.

"You're glowing. Plus you did great up there." We had talked after a performance in the bar and she saw me play with them for the first time. I hadn't felt this happy since college. I was back. Like actually back, not fake back where I pretended to be this cool girl who had it all figured out. A bad bitch who was actually a sad bitch. Now I actually felt alive.

Dina had most the connections. Lots of rich. "Friends" some snobby and some actually cool. Jesse managed the money and all things serious. I had a feeling the band meant more than just having fun to him. Ellie just handled being the star and the middle of attention. She loved it.

Currently we were at a going away party, Jacklyn's idea. She begged to see me play in the band I asked her a million times if she'd be okay. You know being around Ellie and all. She reassured me that it was all behind her but I still couldn't help but worry. I drowned behind a cup watching Ellie from afar. Her hand on some girls thigh. I recognized the girl to be one of the dancers, we didn't talk much. They laughed and got closer and closer, despite the couch being L shaped and having space for at least six people.

"Are you gonna keep it watching or are you gonna go put that bitch in her place." Jacklyn leaned her head on my shoulder and I sighed.

"Oh and by bitch I mean Ellie. Duh." I chuckle and shake my head. "I don't wanna seem desperate."

"Too late. You've been bumming all afternoon, the moon is out and you're still watching her. At this point she'll end up taking the girl home. Don't let history repeat itself."

Jacklyn's way of talking use to catch me off guard, I used to think she was still hurt over what me and Ellie did. I found out quickly that she was just one of those people that gave it to you straight. No bullshit, no beating around the bush. She wasn't scared to call you out on your BS.

"Come on do something. Flirt around? Make her jealous."

"That doesn't work." I whine pushing my body off the kitchen counter. "Trust me I've tried."

"You haven't tried with me? Don't you think it'll drive her crazy?" Jacklyn's smirks, her eyes fluttering up at me. I almost feel flustered. Jacklyn was...beautiful. Hot. Everything I wish I could be. If I wasn't so stuck on Ellie then Jacklyn would be perfect. I could tell she was the submissive type, something Ellie definitely wasn't.

I imagine myself in a situation where I was the one in control. I wondered what kind of sound would escape her pretty lips and how she'd melt on my fingers. How she'd taste perfectly sweet and...

"Earth to Willow!" Jacklyn shakes me from my mind and I'm visibly embarrassed. I went from thinking about how Jacklyn was the ideal girlfriend to thinking of Ellie coming undone become of me. She was the light and I was the stupid moth that kept flying around her.