L.M.I. My Second Tenderness

Chapter 27: Despise

Chapter 27: Despise

Mizy's Problem:

Tomorrow is already school day. I have to already prepare now all my things to not shatter  and be on shock. I already prepared my notebooks, textbooks and the assignments to be passed.

Gosh! I can't find my book in Arts. I hunted all parts of my room, it took me about 8 minutes of searching in desks, cabinets but none!

I tried the whole house but still nothing. I even ask to my brother but he had no clues at all. I'm already weary of finding but it won't appear to me. Where in hell did I put it!? I'm almost bursting in wrath but I try to calm down and continue the search anyway. But it took me more 3 minutes. Because I can't still find it, I accidentally threw my skateboard. Then I try to calm down by holding on my head and sitting at my soft bed. I'm still a bit irritated then, but I still do my best to calm down. When I picked up my phone and as I opened the screen, Mizy calls me up. But why would Mizy call me?

I answered the call to answer the questions behind my mind.

"Hi John. Did I bother you?" Mizy's first sentence as I answered the call.

"Not actually. I'm bored right now." But deep inside, I already feel irritated because my book is still lost.

She said, "Can you be with me? I'm here in a milktea shop. I need someone right now. I really need someone right now."

I had mercy for her, because, I'm thinking she is bringing or carrying a problem. "Okay, I'll come." I replied and immediately dressed up to comfort her.

I'd remember there was a time this was our situation when May is still my girlfriend. When she was still alive, I used to be always in her house when her mother is always out. As I just step in, just when she sees me, the more aches come out, the stronger she cries. "Tears do not answer what you shall do, but tears help you to know what to do." This is always what I remind to her. But those were already finished but until now, I still remember.

It suddenly rained while I was walking. But my anger didn't increase. It reminded me of how I was with May. I loved her so much.

So as the rain got stronger, I ran fastly, remembering, and holding the past, the gazes, the looks, the memories that formed. It never withers at all for we made true love. My furious run was not just for evading the rain, but I felt that I was chasing for May, before she's gonna leave me, because everything went back to me. The dazzling light, the cold climate, but stopped dreaming, and the rain suddenly halted and I remembered May's already gone. I feel like I'm sometimes visiting a fictional world, but the fictional place I'm contriving.

I reached, the milktea shop Mizy is referring to. It's just small and I immediately saw her facing at the flow of the the light rain. She didn't notice me as she is focused on it. I went inside wet and immediately touched her to make her feel I'm already here by her side to give her a delight.

When she looked at me, the tears suddenly fell. I got touched at her looks. She first asked me, "Am I worth it?" I wasn't sitting down yet but she is and looking straight to me. I try to get in her situation, to understand what's going on but I chose to ask "Why do you ask such kind of question like that?" I felt she's insecured.

Then she suddenly hugged me, "I can't carry my pain anymore!" She said while tightly holding to me. I again remembered our condition with May. Sometimes, she was like that to me when she was weak. May even hugged me tight in the state of her problems. I visualize May to Mizy, because they're sisters.

Mizy narrated to me her problem, "I feel that no one supports me anymore!" I asked her, "Why did you suddenly feel that?" She answered, "It's like I just plead for other people's attention. Am I not enough to linger in a group? Am I desolating?" As she cried, there I saw scourges on her. I even felt the emotions she brings but it's hard in her situation to make it a burden. "The world you know we step on is not what we really see. There'll come, deceit passes over and we can't avoid it. And people have their own standards of choosing a friend and maybe, in my opinion, they aren't the ones fitted for you. Don't bury hatred in your heart for you will dwell in wrath. Refrain from that!" My quick advice to Mizy. But through her eyes, it seemed she's been carrying it long ago and she just expressed it to me only now, because maybe she finds someone she can really trust, someone who will understand the plead of her heart, someone who will carry her arms to make a better decision.