LOST IN LOVE 🌡️

20/PENDING

LUSCIOUS

I sighed a breadth of relief as she said he had left her but her following words had me on edge again , if only I knew I would be thrown off the cliff completely

" I thought it was just a weird moment but the very next second he was back In my room with his briefs only , I questioned him as to what the matter was , why was he coming in and going".

"But he pranced towards me in long strides and tore my clothes off me and that's when I knew that shit was about to go down ".

"He succeeded in tearing every piece of clothing off of me until I was left bare and I tried hard stopping him but he had my hands locked above my head and he fixed his knees in between my legs , keeping them apart and then he stuffed a finger in my vagina ".

"I shrieked and wiggled trying to get away but there was only little , 12 year old me could do, he didn't even apply more force and when I willed my eyes to open at a point I saw him through my hazy eyes".

"He was all naked, I knew there was no turning back but I tried for the 30th time I begged him please to stop it , I begged him".

" 'I beg you with God , for my mother and father please don't do it , I even beg you in the name of Allah , stop it please' ".

"But as he did the other 29 times , he never listened and that's how I lost my dignity, honour and sanity".

"I became a shell , a living corpse . I went to school with his daughter , not uttering a single word about what had happened".

"I knew I was all alone , the moment I lost my parents I had no one else so I gave up and then I would come back home , eat to the best of my ability but end up throwing it all up as soon as I get to my room".

"It reminded me of how I had to crawl from my bed to the bathroom , how I scrubbed my already red body under the hot water and washed all the blood off my thighs and stood still till I felt numb enough ".

"It didn't end , that night's occurrence turned into occurrences and soon it turned to weeks in a month, he would rape me almost every day in a week and if you're wondering where my aunt and his daughter were , he was a Doctor so he always had them drugged".

"I turned 17 when he got arrested for terminating a 7months old pregnancy which led to the death of the woman and that too a child that belonged to him".

"Finally my Grandma had the chance and right to get my custody .I told her all about my trials and to say she was shocked would be an understatement, she was frantic at how she had left me at the hands of a tormentor".

"She then made me promise that I would never be that 12 year old girl again , I would never get back into my shell and I would never beg In the name of God and Allah at once to anyone until you , Luscious".

"She got me into therapy and soon after at the age of 22 I reached a good standard weight for my age and I could finally say I was doing good ".

She said heaving at the end but I sat feeling defeated when it wasn't even my battle , it was a battle I sent her back in time to fight all over again

"I can't put into words exactly how I feel hearing her story , I was angry at her uncle for doing that to her , I was angry I wasn't there to stop her being raped ".

"I was angry I had made her recount such bad memories but I was sad as well , I was sad as she really did see me as a monster that night , I was sad as I had been the one who made her beg again not for pleasure but for freedom from me , as her tormentor".

I kept going on and on but then she tapped me bringing me back to reality

"Luscious what as she like?".