LOST IN LOVE 🌡️

43/VAIN

SELENA

I have never felt so fulfilled in my life although it's not a 100 percent but when I close my eyes and just live as though I know nothing , it all makes perfect sense

3 years ago I wrapped my head around a new life with Vallentino and today I can proudly say I love the life am living

It's not just about how he calls me , claims me or makes me feel . It all about how I feel about him

For him I started going to therapy , I want so bad to heal and curb my demons , I want a life of sanity with him but it seems as though before fate am nothing but a joke so fate decided to play a cruel joke on me in the form of my entire life , a joke

" Let's go Devin" I said to my driver , I had everything I needed with Vallentino, I never had to cook except I wanted to , I never had to clean , I never had to drive myself . I am his Queen

Today I decided to go pay my husband a surprise visit and that too give him lunch , my treat . V has been nothing but the best husband to me so I try when am sane to be the best wife too

My therapist once said If I didn't want to lose anyone's love then I have to show them that am worth their love but it doesn't mean I should stop to any level just to get it . I totally agree, I'll show Vallentino that am worth his love especially now In my condition

"Ma'am we're here" I got snapped out if my thoughts by Devin so I got out of the car and made my way into ' Chicken Nugget '

"Ma'am " I was called out of my staring so I ordered a pack of Chicken Nugget some dessert to go with and stir fried spaghetti to go

I stared at him till he got in his car and immediately I raced into my car

"Devin follow that white masti car quick" I said in a haste as he zoomed after the car

I watched him drive into City's Hospital and so I sent Devin in to find out as much information as he could

"Ma'am he in there with a patient and they would be leaving soon , the patient is getting discharged today" He said earning a nod from me as all my sense were being nagged with curiosity as I want to know who the patient was so I waited

I finally saw him walk out with her , they walked glued by the hip with that old granny that wouldn't stop singing his praises 3years ago , yes it burned in my memory like it was a minute ago it all happened

They got in car and immediately I ordered Devin to follow up

They drove in to a cranny nursing home and I watched them bid the granny goodbye as they all went in but only they came out without her

I saw them hug each other so close as though they would not be able to breathe without the other and soon we hit the road as they did only this time I couldn't take it anymore

They looked so much in love if you were to ask the me from 4years ago I would have said I would find mine too but not now when my stuck up deceit towards myself came crashing down

I saw them holding hands and walking around the street , they were so happy yet I wasn't but I was . I don't know if am happy or not but sure as hell I wasn't happy with their fairytale

" Devin let's go " I said and immediately my car roared into life

I disagree with my therapist, no one is ever going to love me even when I show all of me not even V , mum was right

-----Minutes Later

I tried to cancel all my thoughts but they never seemed to disappear and so I made my way up to V's office and just when I was about to walk in , I heard him