my point of view of our relationship 2021-2024, what i feels and what i went through at that time, sorry for the messy writing, i tried my best love, i love you hope u like it ;)
On my tiny old phone i wrote a note, a random dream that i just dreamed last night. Why is it such a simple dream feels so important that i had to write it on my notes, i don't even know at that time, but now i know why.
June 17 2021 3:42 PM "Fyi i tried to remember his face, Instagram, WhatsApp but i can't, it's just blur, everything is so blurry. But i don't know why all i could think of is that guy i met on Instagram, i told u once about him, it's that guy who likes a short hair selebgram, i seriously don't know why but i think he's the guy in my dream.. but why..."
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I wrote that on my tiny old phone note, and send it to my friends. I told 3 of my friends at that time, well they didn't really react so much and told me maybe it's just a random dream and i should not take it that deep. But oh quarantine really hits me that hard that i end up dm ing this guy on Instagram.
June 19 2021 12:03 AM. "Hey, i think i just dreamed about you"
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We already knew eachother since 2019. Media social is such a big part of my life to be honest, i learn so many things, whether it's a positive thing or a negative thing but either way i am lucky that i have such a BIG confidence to replied to this random guy comment on a Instagram comment section.
"I like this girl who's initial is K" "Me? Haha" "Nanii (the word nani in Japanese means "what")" "Haha 😂" "Okay, no one was joking but why is it funny 🤣" "Yep exactly 🤣🤣" "We should go to the nearest mental hospital" "Yup before it's too late" "Together right?" "Of couse, let's gooo" "Okay suree" "Eh anyways nice to meet you" "Nice to meet you too"
Such a weird way to make friends to be honest, on a Instagram comment section huh? I wonder what the person who posted the video reaction seeing my random interaction with this guy. Well we ended up dm ing eachother on Instagram but it was such a short like seriously really short conversation.
"This is the girl before right? Nice to meet you alright" "Heyy yepp, nice to meet you too" Just a short simple nice to meet you, and once i replied to his Instagram story and our conversation ended there, until 2022.
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On a random evening at May 2021 i found his TikTok account, how u may ask, well again it's because of a comment section.
"I like jedag jedug music now somehow (an Indonesian type of song that use a blinking tap tap and use a high amount of bass, usually used in edited videos) i used to hate it hahaha"
Well i found his cringey comment. "Uh how do you know that's his account though?" His profile picture, it's his face, that's why i immediately recognized it. A normal person would ignore that right but i guess i'm not a normal person, what did i do? Oh u guessed it right, of course i dm him, again.
"Aren't you the guy from Instagram, if i remember you're @akubagas right?"
For a week my dm was ignored. I couldn't really care less though to be honest, so i just ignore it too, but at May 31 2021 6:12 PM i got a new messages from @Mori.
"Wait, yesss, how do u know? Sorry i'm so late" "Uh wait i'm sorry who are you?" (his dm was automatically deleted cause he didn't replied for weeks) "Idk, you send me this "aren't you the guy from Instagram, if i remember you're @akubagas right?" "Oh- the chat is gone bruhh.. ahh yes i found you on someone videos comment section" "Ahh i see" The conversation stopped there. And to be honest, at that time i couldn't care less, i didn't even think of him, cause i was too busy with other guys i've mentioned before, that's why i was so confused why did i think of him when i saw this male figure in my dream. Realistically i should've think of F or my other 2 failed talking stage cause at that moment i was close to them? But nu uh, my mind straight up goes to this guy.
