My Dearest,

Let's fix this together.

We ended up almost fighting every weeks, i couldn't fully blamed it on him, it was our faults both of our faults, why? Cause we're both still a kid, learning how to love, how to understand each other, and we as a child, we couldn't forced each other to fully understand it, that's why we fall apart.

I cried almost everyday.
April 18 2021 i cried before my birthday.
My birthday was at April 19th, well it hurts, even to remember it again it hurts.

Our problems is both of our ego is so BIG like seriously it's probably way higher than the Monas, but more specifically my problem is i never want to apologize first even though i was the one who's in the wrong, whenever he's in a bad mood i get into a bad mood too somehow, and i lack of communication, whenever i'm mad or disappointed i just stay in silence and don't want to talk at all, that's the biggest red flags about me. Now about him, he couldn't control his anger, lack of understanding, and other things that we both knows of course. That's what it's like, our relationship in 2022 was such a mess.

I won't lie, my mental health got worse at that time to the point i ate once a day and eventually got usus buntu, hate it, regret it until now. I know damn well his mental health got worse too cause the frustration and stress our relationship leads too, but we just hang on that thin strings of our relationship, we didn't gave up, we didn't broke up even though our mental health is the sacrifice now, but we didn't gave up.

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Our relationship eventually gets kind off better than before though, it was less chaotic and stressful than before, at least we made up. It was still so tiring though cause we fight, arguments, throwing hurtful words and anger to each other and the next few days we made up, it's tiring, draining, it really is.

But we love each other, so we both rather fight every single day rather seeing us part away and be with someone else's.

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