My Dearest,

Sorry, but i couldn't.

May 27 2023 12:00 PM
"Where you at??"
"In front of H&M"
we met again, the second time, it was kind off funny, cute, and odd that now we meet in a cosplay costume where i cosplayed Ganyu from Genshin Impact and he cosplayed Yuta from Jujutsu Kaisen. Yes i'm the one who requested it.

May was the peak of cosplay events, and as a fellow weeb i am invested, like really invested that i go to a cosplay event twice, first as Yumeko from Kakegurui and the second and last is Ganyu from Genshin Impact.

I asked him to cosplay with me and he wanted to, the struggle with the process of the costume renting was so annoying and stressfull but we made it, we go to a mall it's called Mall TSM, he goes there with his parents and i go with my friends.

It was a nice meet after such a long no contanct, after such a weird stranger moment we're together again even though we don't have any status but at least i'm here beside you watching Fast & Furious with you together while u patting my head. It feels so nice that i could just fall asleep at that exact moment. We ate ramen together, take picture, go to Miniso and bought each other plushie, it was just so nice and relieving that both of us didn't changed, you're still the person i know last year.

It's already late, it's 08:00 PM and we both needs to go home, before i entered my car i get into my tip toes and hug you tightly not knowing that it was our last hug in 2023.

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July 26 2023, i ended up being alone again while u feel the presence of another girl beside you.
My heart sinks to the bottom.

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Before it all happens, i don't know whether it's my fault or not but what i know is it wasn't truly fully my fault or yours. It's just i wasn't ready for a relationship and u want a commitment, i wasn't ready for a serious relationship again that's why i rejected you. I know ur feelings got hurted a lot at that time, that it doesn't even make u want to persuade me anymore.

That's why i knew yeah, let's just part away again, for the second time. I felt bad, it hurts, but what else's i could do, it's for my sake and our sake. I knew i was wrong but doesn't mean 2 days after we part away you could feel the touch and warmth of another girl while i'm still suffering here. Alone.

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