March 17 2023 23:36 PM
*@moriiilelah sends you a video*
the video itself it's about taking care of ourselves and our health.
Why u sent me that? He's close with another girl at that time, let's call her 'H', H is a sweet girl, a naive girl too to be honest, but i know she is nice. But what are u doing? Why do u still care for me but looks like you're in a relationship with that girl? You always post her, calls her beautiful, but still text me? I'm your ex, not just a random girl.
Everytime i checked ur TikTok repost i got confused, angry, frustrated, "who is this for?" is it for me or her?
I couldn't endure it, seeing u post her everyday on ur WhatsApp story but still texting me telling me ur day, problems, on daily to me, i don't get it, but i don't care either, i'm okay with this situation.
No actually i'm not, i got really confused that i dm the girl. I just wanna ask her what's going on, are u guys dating or not, if u are, well he's still texting me. And i'm his ex.
I got mixed up in ur relationship or whatever it is, but well at the end i knew that you and her weren't dating, i'm glad cause that means i'm not a third person in here. Cause that would be so embarassing and annoying for myself. And what i knew is after i dm her, both of you part away, it was evil, mean, selfish of me but i hate seeing u with someone else's, actually loving them in a pure lovely way while i can't love someone else's now because of the past. That's why i ruined it. I felt sorry, but not fully sorry. Cause u gave me mixed signals too. Have u fully moved on from me? Or not? Do you still care for me? Or not?
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I don't know what's going on and what is our status relationship now, but what i know is i got to spend my birthday this year with you again, and i'm very happy of that.
Time passed, we messages each other daily and act like we're dating like in the past again, but we we'rent dating, we're just stuck in this "talking stage loop" Why? Cause my trust issues is holding me back. I couldn't fully trust him anymore, and i'm fully aware i wasn't healed enough to have a relationship again, but i still gave him a second. Cause i love him.
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YOU ARE READING
My Dearest,
Romancemy point of view of our relationship 2021-2024, what i feels and what i went through at that time, sorry for the messy writing, i tried my best love, i love you hope u like it ;)
