my point of view of our relationship 2021-2024, what i feels and what i went through at that time, sorry for the messy writing, i tried my best love, i love you hope u like it ;)
He immediately replied to my dm at that time, well i got shivers i don't know what to reply back, it's that feeling where you're embarrassed but excited too, well i eventually replied him back though. I explained too him what's the dream is, and a short explanation here, the dream wasn't a 18+ dream or he saved me by kissing me like in the Snow White movie no, not at all. It was a dream where i got catcalled by a random old guy at a mall and he protected me, exchange media social with me, share his earphones with me and listen to some songs together and i woke up.
It was blurry when i woke up and i can kind off remember the detail from the dream but just a little, the gut feelings in me told me that "this is important." So i immediatly grab my phone and wrote it on my note. Every single detail i remember i write it.
Well after i explained it to him he got a little confused, i get why though cause imagine a stranger dm ing you at 12:03 AM and they told u that they dreamed about you? If i were him i wouldn't even reply to be honest. It's just way too weird and random. Especially in this pandemic.
After i explained the dream to him i apologized to him for disturbing his time, i could say that he doesn't look interested at all. He didn't even bother to reply to my explanation of my dream, i bet he doesn't even read them. He just doesn't gave a fuck. And looks annoyed to be honest. But again i get it though.
"Yeahh uh that's all to be honest, I'M SO SORRY I DISTURBED YOUR TIME i'm really sorry..." "Oh it's okay, don't worry" The conversation ended. Why? Why?
All the courage i builed up all day all night to texted him that long ass paragraph and he just reply with a "Okay don't worry" with a such cold tone.. damn.. I LOVE IT.
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For me, getting guys to like me back wasn't a problem at all, it was very easy for me but at the same time i really like challenges and something new, this is boring you know? Getting what i wanted so easily without any challenges and problems is so boring, that's why when i saw his cold replies to my chat and he doesn't look interested to me at all that excitement in my body came back, and all i could think of is "chase him." So i did.
I did everything to get him, to make him be mine, cause it's a challenge for me, and it's in front of my eyes, i won't dare to just run back close my eyes and leave it like that, ill chase him until i get him.
Sounds really scary and obsessive to be honest, but in reality it's actually not that scary okay? At that time i was in 6th grade and he's in 8th grade, do u think someone who's in 6th grade could do some shits? Nah, i couldn't even ride a bicycle, and i don't even know where he lives, but obviously what i know is were not in the same city, and what i know again is he lives in Jakarta. "Uh how do u know?" Stalking. Not stalking in real life of course duh.. just going through his friends, mutuals Instagram account and that's where i got his school.
At that time i don't really know whether i like him or i'm just bored and want something to satisfy my boredom. Later i found the answer though. And none of them is that.
