𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒 || Naruto Uzumaki ✓

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『 𝐂 𝐇 𝐀 𝐏 𝐓 𝐄 𝐑  𝟑 𝟑 』
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━『 Bed of Spider Lilies 』

The sun was casting down onto me as I looked at the village from the engraved Hokage faces, standing on the third Hokage. There was no wind and the heat was evident. Parts of the village were still broken and getting fixed by the attack from Orochimaru. Sasuke's departure and the near-death cause that some of my friends went through to bring him back to the village.

I still remember deciding to stay out of the way, he can do whatever he wants. I'll come after him one day, the day I find out what really happened and if Sasuke is right, then I'll help him murder Itachi and If I'm right then I'll have to find my way to him as quickly as possible to prevent him from committing the heinous act of slaughter to our brother.

If I am too late then I'll stay with Sasuke and follow what he wants me to do, only if he is right. If I am right then we shall fulfill the unspoken duty of destroying whoever gave Itachi the order to kill our clan.

Kakashi Sensei was always, helping me with training and so did Anko (Orochimaru). Kakashi's unwavering support and guidance have proven the amount of care he holds for me, and the care he holds for his team. Lady Tsunade was also helping me with my illness, finding any more ways to extend my life span.

I've become aware of the profound selfishness that courses through my veins. It's a desire, an insatiable craving for everything, especially the bonds. This urge, it's gotten stronger within the past three months and I don't know why.

The bonds I form with others, the connections that should be cherished, are tainted by this overwhelming need to possess, to claim everything for myself. The problem is, it's only towards certain people, this is a realisation that, at times, leaves me feeling nauseous—a sickening acknowledgment of the depths of my self-centred desires.

My selfish tendencies might affect those close to me I realised. Naruto's name pops up in my thoughts once again, clouding my rational thinking with his persistent presence. 

My arms cross tightly, and my nails dig into my upper arms. Naruto— I've been clinging to him. Our shared moments weren't just about being on the same team; they were driven by my selfish need to be close to him. Admitting this truth makes me grit my teeth. Yes, I've been selfish with Naruto, but it's more than that.

I've developed feelings for him.

Admitting that I love him—now I'm left wondering how far my selfishness will push me.

"I've been looking for you." A feminine voice piques up behind me and I instantly know who it is, Lady Tsunade.

"What do you want?" I rasp.

"You're so grim when you're by yourself," Lady Tsunade replies.

"That's just how I am," I say without turning to look back at her, "People take my mind off things I'd rather not think about."

"Sakura came to me. She wanted to become my apprentice. Would you like to become one as well?" Lady Tsunade said, revealing her true intentions of why she came to find me when it was probably Sakura herself who told her where I most likely was.

"I don't see why I can't."

"That's great, we'll start training soon then."

"Lady Tsunade?" I question.

"Yes?"

"I must warn you." I feel compelled to disclose before she gets entangled in something beyond her control.