can i sleep forever

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i don't know why i keep going back to people who have made me uncomfortable or just done me wrong. i think it's because of my family they have always made me feel uncomfortable or done something and no matter what has happened i still find myself in a way wanting to be around them.or it could have came from my parents never liking each other but still staying around each other. so maybe that's why i've been around it for pretty much my whole life.

but when it comes to friendships and relationships if they do anything that makes me feel uncomfortable i shouldn't stay around. but i find myself doing that and i shouldn't be doing it exactly in a relationship. but i do anyway, it's not something i want to do it's just something that i can't stop. i don't know when to tell people i don't like something they are doing or if they are making me uncomfortable. because i don't like that feeling of making someone upset or not liking something i said.that's something i need to work on just as many other things that i need to work on.

but right now i know that i shouldn't go back with him because of the things that happened when we were together. and my friends have been telling me from the start that i shouldn't get with him. i don't even know how we got together i was telling him something and the next we were a thing. i hate this feeling of having my friends not being very happy with things ive got myself into. but at the same time when i broke up with him i hated that feeling i had because of the way he felt. and i know that i can't always have people feel a certain way but i hate it so much knowing that something i did is making them feel like that.