Unstable lovers

Chapter Three

We grabbed our rucksacks and walked out of the house. The sun blinded us as soon as we opened the door, and it took us some time to adjust to this new world. But soon enough we were walking down the street on our way to school.

After a few minutes of walking a loud screech came from behind us and we turned to see a black car spinning around the corner. The boy driving must be new. But for some reason he grabbed my attention and I couldn't help but stare at his beauty. He had deep blue eyes, and perfectly styled blonde hair , and flawless pale skin that I thought was just beautiful. I couldn't stop staring until i realised he was staring back at me. He suddenly stopped his car right next to us and wound the window down with a swift tap of a button .

"Hey, I'm Luke," he said. He seemed kind of shy and he had a gorgeous accent that made me melt.
"Erm.. Do you three go to Norwest?" He asked.

"Erm yeh we do," Mikey casually said. He could tell I was nervous , and he probly knew that I fancied Luke because I could see him smirking at me. The cocky shit knows me too well it scares me at times.

"I was wondering if you wanted a lift? I need to make some friends,and I also have no idea where im going." He said politely. "It's 100% fine if you say no. I won't be offended I get it ," he added.

"Erm sure.., I'm Michael and this is my sister Lilly and that's Darren" Mikey answered for me. "But you can call them two Darren, Daz and Mike or Mikey?" I added. "Hi, jump in then,"  Luke said. And with that Darren opened the door and hopped in. Followed by me then Michael. As we were sitting down Darren raised his eyebrows at me and nudged me jokingly. Probably meaning he knew I liked Luke.

The car was really posh, and Luke was listening to what sounded like green day. I couldn't figure out the song because it was too quiet. It sounded like either holiday or boulevard of broken dreams. But I wasn't sure.

We were at school within two minutes. His car was amazingly comfy-I could have fallen asleep. Today was gonna be amazing, I was suddenly overtaken with excitement.

I barely have any friends because of my anxiety, I find it really hard to talk to new people. So I only really hang around with Darren and Michael. If I try make Luke like me back we could even be friends !

My thoughts were cut off by the piercing sound of the school bell to tell me I have class. Me, Darren, Mikey and Luke got out of the car and walked to science to begin our first lesson.

I started to feel really nervous, and I began to get that familiar feeling in my lungs and the pain in my chest as I drifted into panic, I began to lose my breath and before long I couldn't breathe at all.

Darren (who was stood next to me)  noticed and took hold if my hand. I began to breathe really fast and heavily and I began to shake uncontrollably. I knew what was happening. I was having a panic attack again. It hurts so ba and I'd often rather be getting shot than this it's the worst thing in the world.
Michael pushed Darren out of the way and stood directly Infront of me. His hands on my shoulders telling me it's ok. Trying to comfort me. Then he hugged me and told me to breathe. Rubbing my back in circular motions soothingly. He told me to take deep breaths, and try calm down. I tried to breathe, but the fact that I was thinking about it made it worse and Michael ended up having to sit me on the floor in the middle of the corridor because I began to feel dizzy and was acres I would pass out.

It was a good job everyone had gone to class by now. Otherwise I'd be even even more embarrassed.
I hate panic attacks. They're horrible. Darren was holding my hand telling me it's all going to be ok. And Luke was  standing there looking terrified! He had no idea what was going on, the poor guy! I felt so stupid, I'd barley known him an hour and he already probably thinks I'm insane.

I began to feel dizzy because of how fast I was breathing and I couldn't move. I was so scared that all I could do was shake and breathe like an idiot. I felt so pathetic. I covered my face with my hands and held hold of my head to stop myself from passing out. Tears began streaming down my face and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't calm down.

Michael pulled me closer to him and let me cry into his shoulder as he lightly patted my back and said
"It's okay," over and over. Darren still had hold of my hand sat on my other  side. Luke was sat Infront of me now. Just looking at me with scared, upset eyes. He held his hand out towards me, and then pulled it back towards him again hopelessly. I could tell he wanted to help, but he didn't know what to do.

We sat in the corridor for about ten minutes before Michael told Darren to go get first aid.
"Darren she isn't calming down. Can you go get first aid?"
"But I wanna stay with her!" Darren answered "can't Luke go?"
"He's new Daz. He won't know where it is," Michael said.
Darren rubbed his thumb over my hand before letting go and walking away down the corridor to go find help.
Luke shuffled next to me to the spot where Darren was sat.
"Is there anything I can do?" He said leaning forwards to look at Michael.
"I don't know. Maybe take her hand?" He said. Smirking a little, knowing I liked Luke.
I didn't care much though right at this moment. I was still trying to concentrate on my breathing and trying to stop shaking. The world was spinning around me, and I felt my heart almost popping out of my mouth, it was beating so fast I could hear it, and the blood was going round my body so fast that I began to heat up. I felt like I was going to pass out. I cried even more and all I wanted was to feel ok again, or to just go home and sleep. It was draining every last piece of energy left from my body and it was terrifying.

"Sure," Luke said, a smile forming on his mouth. And he took my hand in his and sat there staring at it a few moments before turning his attention back to me and Michael.
"So are you two twins?" He said.
"Yeah," Michael replied.
"Thought so," Luke said smiling at him.
She's 2 minutes older," Michael added looking towards me.

The conversation was stopped by the sound of Darrsnbrunning back towards us.
"No ones in first aid Michael!" He said half out of breath.
"We're just gonna have to sit with her until she's ok to go back to class again, does she have her pass?" He asked.
I had forgotten about that. I have a pass to leave lessons early. And arrive late sometimes. I can just show it to the teacher at my lesson to explain why we're late.
"Yeah I think so, "
"Good, we have as much time as we need then," Darren said. Before looking at Luke and smiling at the sight of him holding my hand.
Damn it. Darren probably knew I liked Luke as well. That's probably why he nudged me while we were getting in Lukes car earlier. He has known me since we were 4. But Darren isn't as tormentative about stuff like that. He finds it more cute than funny. Unlike Michael, he loves annoying me about things like that. I guess that's what brothers are for.

We sat for 45 minutes until the panic attack had passed Over.

"Are you sure your good to go?" Michael asked me.
"I'm all good !" I answered. I was still really nervous, and I was still shaking, but not as bad as before. I also still felt really light headed, but I didn't want to worry my overprotective brother, so I'll just wait for that part to pass.

We arrived at lesson and sat at the back of the class in the 4 spare seats. Luke sat next to me and gave me an adorable smile that made my heart melt a little, which was surprising. I thought he liked Michael better. Darren sat at my other side, and Michael after him. we all got our books and pens out and began copying down the work off the board that we had missed.