BRIDE WITH BENEFITS | JJK

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"I can do this on my own. You should go rest," you tell Hyewon who is helping you pack.

"Seriously, I'm just sitting and folding clothes what's tiring about that," she says before she touches her tummy again. You notice how she can't keep her hands off since it was confirmed.

"Are you nervous?" You ask.

"Well who isn't? But I've been ready for a while so it's not that scary. We were ready a year ago but then Joon had this thing at work which just kept extending," she says. "But then it's also nice if I had a baby or was heavily pregnant I couldn't have enjoyed your wedding like I did."

"How long did it take?" You ask gently.

"Three months. One month we were traveling so we weren't that serious. I'm so grateful it was easy. I hope it's easy for you two also," she touches your arm.

"If Jungkook even wants that," you stuff your dresses into the suitcase angrily.

"What... he wants two kids he's been saying that since he was a kid himself," she says out loud.

You look down gloomily.

Hyewon touches her hand.
"Hey what's wrong? You can talk to me. Did Kook do something to you?" She asks.

"He doesn't likes me." You say.

"What! That's bullshit. He's crazy for you," she says.

"Oh yeah? Then why won't he touch me? I was all prepared and he didn't even look at me properly," you look away with tears in your eyes. Your broken hopes and dreams bring them.

"I don't understand what that guy is doing. He wasn't like this. He was literally bugging Namjoon to give him advice before you two started going out. He wanted to get married," she keeps speaking.

You wonder if his desperation was all to just get you to use you. You fear what he will make you do.

You aren't going to leave him so easily. You want to hurt him like he has hurt you.

He spend so much time with you for the last six months, all for nothing? You put so much effort into doing things right. Prepare yourself get married to a man you met knowing he was also looking to get married like you.

Casual dating never worked for you. You never got relationships out of your dates. You wondered if the problem was you or your lacking skills in assessing men.

Jungkook was approved by all the people you trust with your life. Your siblings, your parents, your relatives, your friends even your neighbours.

He won the hearts of whoever he met. Nobody would stop praising him after they met them.

And he acted sweet with you too. He would take you out on dates every other weekend, come to visit your family often.

You thought maybe love would blossom once you two start living together. Maybe the traditional way was how you were supposed to find love.

Only to find he's just trying to use you that too on your wedding night.

You were excited because you really liked him. And what could be better than making love to get closer to him. You thought if he respected customs and traditions so much, he was only waiting for the wedding night to arrive.

How could you've known that he never touched you because he intends to never touch you.

"What do I do now? I want to make this marriage work."

"We'll do something," she says. She makes you pack your lacy night dresses and gives you her perfume that's supposed to be seductive. Says it's worked for her.

Gives you explicit advice. Ways to slowly show him more of you. You keep a mental note of them all.

When she leaves Jungkook comes to the room and closes the door.

"Is that needed?" You ask not wishing to give others any false hopes.

"I ordered a cake to celebrate. And I want to bring Hyewon a gift will you go to the mall with me?" He asks.

"Going to the mall with you is what brought me here." You frown.

"Yes or no?" He asks.

"Fine," you leave with him.

At the mall you suggest him to buy a shirt for Hyewon which is oversized style and could help accomodate her changing body.

"Oh wow that's so pretty," you say adoring a top you find.

Jungkook picks one up and checks if it's your size by touching it your shoulders and goes to buy it.

You run behind him but he's already swiping his card before you reach him. He's much taller no doubt his steps are much bigger than yours.

"I didn't say I wanted to buy it," you tell him but he pays no attention.

"I want to," he says. He thanks the cashier before walking outside. You walk behind him trying to match his pace.

"How am I supposed to spend five days with you that's like 120 full hours stuck with you," you sigh as you wear your seat belt.

He drives very smoothly. You still get nervous even after six years of driving.

"When am I meeting your other woman?" You ask.

"Don't ask," he says focusing on the road ahead.

"Why not?" You say angrily. He doesn't responds.

Soft music plays on the radio.
You break the silence after a few minutes.

"Your parents were so happy for Hyewon. Do you not want to make your parents happy like that?" You speak carefully. You observe his reaction closely. You try to hit at his soft spot inside everyone says exists.

"I just gave them the happiness of getting married. Now let Hyewon do this one. They can never be satisfied. First they got Hyewon married then pressurized me for five years. Now they want a kid, I don't get these people. They can never be truly made happy."

"I can only see your parents as the most loving people. How can you not see how truly happy they were when Hyewon just nodded. You're lucky you have such parents. My parents would've only pointed out what all I could do wrong. They were only nice with you. It was me who had to do everything about my own wedding. They only care about my siblings." You tell him. "And now I have you, a husband who doesn't even loves me." You look outside the car trying to avoid him.

"Hey," Jungkook pulls over to the side. He tries to make you look at him but you refuse.

When you finally do, he wipes your tears with a tissue.

"I can only promise you one thing, I know you have feelings for me, I don't but if things happen trust me I won't be the one trying to stop them and I wish you will not too." He leaves you confused but still it gives you some sort of comfort. You don't know what that means. He's supposed to be with someone else and then he's saying things like this to you.

The family eats cake sitting in the living room. Hyewon and Namjoon refuse to cut it as they don't want to get too excited and spoil things. Although she does accepts Jungkook's gift.

You and Jungkook sleep early to leave for the airport at 3 in the morning as your flight was scheduled for 4:30.

You were too tired to talk in the taxi. Although you did talk about some random general things and some stupid biker passing by you in such a speed that makes you dizzy by just looking.

You wish the honeymoon proves to be helpful.