BRIDE WITH BENEFITS | JJK

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Jungkook notices when you go to the bathroom again and again during the night, checking for blood in your underwear.

Jungkook asked why you were washing your underwear at night. You said it was very sweaty smelly and he didn't pay much attention after that.

You just couldn't fall asleep getting all sorts of bad ideas and silently weeping thinking your happiness was being carried away once again from you.

Jungkook thinks you have some digestive issue and hence the frequent bathroom tours. You don't realise when you fall asleep as he pats your back while still half asleep himself.

As soon as your eyes open again, you run to the bathroom and take a deep breath of relief finding the fabric clean. Out of anxiety you take another pregnancy test just in case the first one was taken too early or something. You just do whatever pops into your mind, the strip shows two dark lines yet your worries don't go away.

You start to feel nauseous out of all the stress. When you go outside you find Jungkook already making preparations for breakfast. He makes some ginger tea to help you soothe the nausea.

He gives you his comforting hugs and kisses knowing that you had a hard night.

You start to think if you should've told your mother and mother in law. After all they have much more experience in this area and could give you better advice. You have nobody to consult, nobody to talk to about this.

The only one with some level of experience is Hyewon, who is pregnant herself and you can't risk stressing her out with your problems.

You decide to work from home to observe your condition. Jungkook goes to work and promises to come back early.

You spend the day in bed, working in between trying to keep negative thoughts away.

There has been no blood since the night before yet your fears stay strong as ever.

Your mother in law suddenly calls informing that she saw a dream that you and Hyewon are both walking in a park with your babies. She asks when you are gonna have a baby and how she longs to see his son's child. Then talks about how Hyewon waited five years but luckily didn't face any problems in conceiving and her pregnancy has been complication free so far.

You think a few times about telling her secretly but then it would be like betraying Jungkook since he wants to wait until the scan to tell his parents. She pretends to talk about how infertility is rising and having kids for national interest. Before ending the call, she apologises to have wasted your time. You tell her you're working from home. She asks you to visit with Jungkook during the weekend if your schedules permit.

You call your mother, thinking you should discuss with her but she starts to complain about your father and brothers and uncles and aunts so you refrain from increasing her stress. She asks you how things are at work and if Jungkook is doing well. You answer both questions positively.

You allow yourself to rest for the day. Trying to not feel guilty about overworking yourself the other day when you weren't feeling well and had no energy to do any work.

Since the whole day passes by peacefully, you try to relax once Jungkook comes home.

You help him cook dinner and watch some slice of life drama afterwards.

When you find yourself very close to him, he respectfully distances himself from you says he wants to wait until the doctor says it's okay to get intimate. You agree with him.

You read the book that got delivered in the afternoon, Jungkook peeks into the pages before he dozes off. After the troublesome night, you were resting all day but he was in his office working his ass off.

You know he has set standards that he wants to adhere to while raising his family. You let him have his space about that. He has a provider kind of mindset. That's why he works really hard at his job so that he can come home and spend time with his family without any worries.

Your career is a bit different. Sometimes you have to wake up in the middle of the night to take calls and take care of issues. And he never interferes through your work. Even you really liked it when he didn't give any unwanted input and only stood by your side as your husband. That really increased your trust and respect for him when he knew exactly what was needed of him and only provided that.

To take your mind off things you decide to go to work anyhow. Jungkook drops you and says he'll pick you up. You tell him that you'll ask somebody to drop you. He says they won't drive carefully. You say you'll ask nicely excusing with a bad backache.

For lunch, you give everyone extra time off. You sit with your friends in your cabin. Hoseok and Yoongi, your team members who have been with you since the first day. Hoseok is a designer and Yoongi is a financial advisor mostly amongst other roles he often plays.

They are your only friends whom you talk about everything with. Your marriage, husband, relationships, breakups, dates. They're no less than to any girlfriends to you. Whenever you face a problem, you're in doubt they always come to rescue.

They never judge you for anything. Treat you respectfully. They never make misogynistic jokes or talk about anything that you might find offensive.

"Guys I've got something to tell you," you say grabbing their attention.

They look at you curiously, waiting for you to speak.

"I just can't keep it a secret anymore. I need to tell someone," you say.

"Okay," Yoongi grows tense. Hoseok gets impatient.

"I'm pregnant!" You blurt out.

"Oh wow," Hoseok says surprised by the news.

"That's such great news. Congrats," Yoongi smiles.

"Can you believe it? I have a human being forming inside me. It's just so weird," you say finally getting the opportunity to express the strange feelings you've been feeling which you have nobody to share with.

When you cough a little, Hoseok rubs your back and Yoongi rushes to pour water for you in a cup.

"Calm down, I'm enough to worry about myself," you tell them.

"We're just taking care of you. You don't have to do anything from now on, we'll take care of everything. Don't worry about a single thing. Just order us around, show your boss attitude," Yoongi jokes. Hoseok giggles.

"I'm glad someone knows. We haven't told anybody yet. But it's like the happiest news of my life so I do want to share with my close ones. I can't tell my family. I have to respect my husband's wishes too. I'm glad I could tell you two," you tell them.

The three of you stand up together to hug but as soon as their arms are around your shoulder, you start to see darkness in front of your eyes. A sharp, unbearable, excruciating pain  arises in your belly. You lose all sense of control and cry out loud. You wail in pain and feel dizzy.

"My baby, my baby, my baby..." your words trail off as you faint. Yoongi and Hoseok catch you.

They panic and call for help. The employees come rushing in.

Blood rushes down your legs. A huge amount of blood. Somebody quickly calls an ambulance at the sight of it. It's a girl who knows that the blood you're losing is far more than a miscarriage. She knows from personal experiences that she never ever talks about.

They all feel helpless as neither can they stop the bleeding nor make you gain consciousness again.

Author's note
I know you all are gonna hate me so much...
Tell me how much you hate me

In another news the mouse is back under my cupboard. We've spent a week setting up traps but it just doesn't gets in. Ugh