BRIDE WITH BENEFITS | JJK

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You lie on the bed staring at the ceiling, tears don't stop flowing down your cheeks.

All your dreams and hopes and plans of a loving family shatter into pieces.

You weren't as stressed about losing the baby telling yourself that you'll conceive again but Jungkook's behavior is what extremely stresses you out.

You're angry at the universe for doing this to you. After so many difficulties you thought finally you were going to have some peace. You would make beautiful memories with your husband and baby. It was the life you always wanted and it all felt so close to you.

Yet you knew something would happen. The universe hates seeing you happy, at peace. As soon as you get happy all of it gets snatched away from you even more quickly.

A habit was created even though it was a short time since you got to knew that is to rub your belly every few minutes. You do it again and realise how much it took away from you.

It's a rare occurrence yet it happened to you. Why did you have to be among the 1% that end up like this? Maybe it's even lesser than that but you don't know. You don't wanna know.

All you know is that you can't figure out what sin you committed that you get punished like this.

You're grieving a life that could've been. Not only that but also a family, a home, a precious bond.

It would've brought you two closer. You and Jungkook. Looking at a creation of yours, you would've felt at home with him. It made you believe that maybe the two of you are made for each other.

Instead your union bore catastrophic consequences that you could've never foreseen.

After seeing the blood, you were worried about losing your baby. It never occurred that something so horrible was taking place inside you. That it would almost kill you, the mistake you made. You deluded yourself into thinking it was the best mistake of your life but it ended up being the worst.

You don't have any idea where Jungkook is. Yoongi and Hoseok went to find him after they saw you crying. Angrily they took it in their hands to feed some sense into him.

You are shifted to a private room from the ICU after they find your condition stable. You try to maintain your composure in front of the doctors and nurses. The doctor explains to you the procedure you went through in much more detail and explains how you'll have to take care during recovery also advices you to consult a doctor before trying to conceive again in the future.

Before your own parents, your mother in law and father in law reach the hospital. They say your mother called them and they rushed as soon as they could.

They ask where Jungkook is. You lie and say you sent him to get some things for you. His father keeps calling him but he doesn't picks up.

Your mother in law almost cries hearing about what happened to you. Says you should've told her. You politely inform it was his son's decision.

Your mother reaches crying uncontrollably while you scold her to not cry like this as you're okay now.

"Why does my child have to go through so many struggles? Why can't god give me some of your troubles?" She cries.

You know it doesn't makes sense but that is what you wished too. You wish you could go through pain while your child stayed safe and get born healthily too. You felt like a mother ever since you saw those two lines on the test. Everything changed for you in that one moment.

You were ready for things to change, your life to change. It was a change you were yearning for. You know it would've been hard, it would've been challenging but you know it would've been rewarding too.

Your mother sits beside you and caresses your forehead, kisses you. Says she knows how much pain you must be in. Says it's the worst pain a human can ever go through, losing one's child.

She tells you about how she lost a baby after you. You were only three. You were the first person she told when she first found out. Taught you she had a baby in her. At ten weeks, when she lost it, you still kept asking when the baby was coming. And she couldn't give you any answers, she just cried and you would try to console her with hugs and kisses.

Jungkook's mother says she never had a miscarriage but had a scare when she was with Ryuwon. It was high risk and she had to stay in bed for almost four months. She was convinced the baby wouldn't make it. Doctors called Ryuwon a miracle child after she was born.

Left alone in the room with just your mother and your mother in law. You break into tears again in company of the sympathetic women. Almost every woman goes through something. This was written for you.

Ryuwon comes unexpectedly to the hospital. She meets you first of all. Asks the ladies to go out for a while and get some air.

She looks around then asks, "Where's my brother?"

"I don't know," you tell her in a helpless tone.

"Oh god. That man. When will he understand what happens to his partners is not his fault!" She dials Jungkook's number but it goes straight to voicemail.

"You know about Sooji?" You ask.

"Yeah," she says. "Don't say that to him," she adds.

"How did you..." you pause not wanting to bother her.

"I haven't told anyone in the family," she says.

"What?" You whisper. You touch her hand to let her know she can trust you.

"I lied to you when I said I'm asexual. I thought you would bug me by setting me up with someone if I said I'm actually bisexual," she shares what she keeps from everyone else. She trusts you.

"And you know Sooji's younger sister Mijoo, their grandmother wants Jungkook to marry her," she says.

"Okay. I know," you tell her that you put one and one together and got two. Ryuwon and Mijoo are in a relationship.

"She's my girlfriend," she quickly speaks with her eyes closed.

"How did you two meet?" You ask out of curiosity and wanting to get your mind off the sad things.

"Jungkook said a friend of his wanted to get her grandmother treated for eczema so he sent them to my university's medical center. I showed them around and well, sparks flied. We became friends first then hooked up and we live together now," she tells you with a blush on her face arising out of thinking about her lover.

"Wait, who told Hyewon?" You say as Hyewon barges inside the room.

"I specifically asked not to tell Hyewon," you shout concerned about who stressed out the pregnant woman.

"Shut up, I would've known anyways. Why did you not tell me about it? It didn't have to get this serious. How could you two be so careless?" She says scared after looking at your condition.

"Hyewon, I'm okay. Relax," you tell her calmly while she wipes her tears.

"What can I even say? I have a healthy happy baby kicking inside me. I have no right to say anything to you right now," she loses her composure. She can't make sense of things. She can't believe what has happened.

"Where's Jungkook?" Hyewon asks looking around. You look away from her and stay silent.

People expect him to be there. This is the time he is supposed to be by your side at all costs. He's supposed to take care of you. They expect to console him too while he's grieving. But he's nowhere to be found for them to be able to do so.