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Dev's POV

I looked back and sighed. Even my reflection is bashing me for my rash behaviours. Stupid me.

I got away from the TV and pushed the bathroom door open, getting inside to finish soaking the clothes in detergent water. Then I came back to my room, putting my phone in changing. My charger seemed to be feeling loose nowadays, it would only get charged at a specific angle, otherwise it kept disconnecting. I have grown frustrated of it, but I was too lazy to go and buy myself one.

Crazy how you lazy for a charger, crazy enough getting way with murder?

Technically, killing myself wasn't murder, was it? Yeah I know I'm a guy who thinks twice before using money, but once I've bought something for me, I'll definitely use it to it's fullest. But the fact was, when do I decide finally to get my ass up from the bed and go to buy it? Not like I can go now anyways, it was already past midnight. And the charging seemed to be going so well, unless I bothered the cable much. The phone was at 28% when I left it on charging, and went back to the kitchen to clean it up.

That's when I noticed, a plate kept there, with noodles in it. My mouth gaped open, and I noticed another plate kept beside the sink, washed and dried.

You are a fucking idiot Dev.

I know I said that out loud in my mind, but I am! I invited someone over. Not technically but still, I did ask her to come, and she came, made me dinner, made my room cleaned enough, took care of me, and what did I do?

Pass out, groan, then deciding not to share my past. All the bad manners poured out in one day's behaviour, how messed up I am na? I bet that's why I was in an abus-

No! No no no, I'm not gonna haunt myself again. I've had my fair share for tonight, one new scar is enough, thank you. Besides, Vani went home and now it's not like I'd have another care session alone.

I walked back to my bedroom with the plate and a bottle of water. Sitting down on the bed and pulling the table closer, I turned on the AC to 26°c and started eating.

God! She cooks awesome!!

I hummed as the taste blessed my tongue, making me crave for more. But sadly there was one plate only and it took me just 2 minutes to devour it. I really was hungry.

I pressed the lock button of my phone, showing off the anime wallpaper, it was from an anime named YOUR NAME. Well, it is an anime movie but still. I unlocked and voila! Another wallpaper, from the movie YOUR NAME. Just the two situations were different, in the lock screen, they were reaching out for each other. In the unlocked home screen, they looked from their own places at the night sky, watching the meteor tear throughout the sky.

I put the plate beside the table, telling myself I'd remember to pick it up tomorrow. As I shifted under the comforter, I let out a sigh of relief. Yes I was one of those who would use AC with comforter. It made me feel relieved. Balanced temperature.

My phone started ringing and I picked it up. Even the ringtone was from an anime. Jeez, sometimes I do forget if I love anime that much. I looked at the screen and noticed Vivek's name. My nose fluttered with the exhale I made out of frustration.

"Hello?"

"Hey!! Sorry yaar I was busy for tomorrow's assignments in the office."

I sighed. Yeah of course, office. This guy is giving even less and less time to Ananya. I spent so many of my college days trying to path Mr Vivek Deshmukh and Ms. Ananya Chandra together. But their paths might have a third lane, time.

"Did you talk to Ananya?"

"Arre... Shit, I forgot! What time is it now?"

"It's 2:21 AM. You forgot right?"

"Arre no no, honestly. I didn't forget, I'll wish her now I swear! Ok bye I'll talk to you later."

"Arre but-"

*Beep beep beep*

Ok, I guess he forgot that I called HIM to talk. And he just hung up on me. Fine I guess, at least let Ananya do some scolding on my behalf. How can someone be so busy just to call at the right time, specially the person whom you're promising to be getting married to soon?

I guess Vivek is just trying hard to get a promotion, but we both are in the queue. Well, he's going in the Quality team, me being in the Survey. So that means we both can get promoted at the same time as well. But, depends on the performance too.

I sighed and opened my Instagram. My cousins seemed to have a videocall today along with mamu. And I missed it out because I was having an urge to test my nonexistent swimming skills in the canal. Not even a big river, am I that cheap?

I opened our group, noticed the shared memes and reacted haha to each of them. I didn't open the memes but I know my cousins. They'd be serious in life when the sun rises from the west.

5 female cousins, me the only male until the youngest traitor came into our family. He's only around three years and already knows what is boob and what is ass. The guy is gonna be a trouble and I already know it. He looks cute and innocent but the later one is only visible for one's eyes, not to be witnessed clearly.

I scrolled a bit through the reels when my phone started ringing again, this time..

The name made me with relief.. and regret. The way I thought I'd end my life, the way I thought I'd escape, not caring in the world about what would happen to the people who care about me. The way my selfishness took over.

I looked at my screen, her smiling face looking at me with innocence and love. So much of it that I could drown in them even if I knew swimming. A smile that feels so big enough to engulf my pain in it, no matter how immense it is, no matter how hard the burden feels. Maybe she was busy, that's why she didn't pick up, but she did call me back now. Who would pick up the call if I was gone, how would she feels if she didn't get her call recieved by me in the end?

So selfish I am. Such an ungrateful child.

The song of Jubin Nautiyal set up as her special ringtone. I smile a bit before picking up the call. Listening to the lyrics carefully.

Hey kal ratri, hey kalyani
Tera jod dhara par koi nahi
Meri maa ke barabar koi nahi..