SHIT + LOVE

Men and their D*cks in their pants

You're probably guessing what my story is.
My name is Cassandra Lee.
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I woke up from a dream. A moment in time that has been lingering in my mind for as long as I can remember.

The dream was about me and my family having a picnic in the sand at a beach house we once owned. We were all smiles that day, I was 8 years old. There was this scene when I was chasing my brother with a bucket of sand ready to pour it on his head & my mom smiling warmly with my dad while they dance in the sand.

Laughter and love filled the air. I smiled while remembering everything that happened that day. It was one of the best happy moments of my life. But then again happy moments don't last forever. They wind up becoming nothing but a fragment of ones memory.

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I was 18 when things started to crumble. My Dad started to have affairs, my Mom getting addicted to alcohol and drugs, my Brother who always ends up in jail for getting into trouble and there was me who couldn't do anything in the world to make things go back to normal.

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Until one terribble day. I was heading home from school when I noticed an ambulance pass by the road that leads to my neighbourhood. I wondered what it's about and I thought maybe it's Mrs. Williams our pregnant neighbour who is supposed to give birth any minute this week; so I shrugged it off and kept walking with my earphones plugged in, listening to some Ed Sheeran songs.

It wasn't long when I reached our front lawn and I see my Dad sitting on the porch, his hands burried in his hair, tears falling from his dark brown eyes. He looked horrible. Then it hit me. I started running towards him, tears starting to form in my eyes. "Dad! Dad?! Whats going on?! What the hell is going on?!" I exclaimed holding on to his hands expecting a rational answer but he just stares blanky at me. Not a word coming out of his mouth. He cried so loud and took me in his arms hugging me like theres no tomorrow. I didn't even realize I was crying. I was crying not knowing a single damn about what's happening.

Thats when I saw it. I saw two men probably from the ambulance carrying somebody covered in white sheets, with their heads down low as they carry it back to the ambulance.

I snapped, I let go of my Dad and charged towards them trying to get a hold off the sheets desperately wanting to know who's under it. But just before I was able to reach it, strong hands got a hold of me shouting "Lee! Lee! Please calm down! everything's going to be ok I promise!. Lee please!" I begun to hyperventilate and when I looked back to see who's keeping hold of me, I see Xan, my brother crying infront of me for the first time. "Lee count with me. 1-2-3 breathe, again sis 1-2-3 breathe. Good good now inhale, exhale, again" he said it in such a gentle way I begun to calm down.

"Xan whats going on?" trying to compose my breathing while crying at thesame time. "It's mom" he says with sadness in his voice. I gasped, I couldnt say anything because I couldnt believe Him. "You're joking! This is just one of your sick jokes again! It's not funny!!! I know Mom is just probably at the living room watching T.V right now!!! Let me go! I need to go see her!!" I try to let go of his grip. Theres no way my Mom is dead she may have gotten addicted to all sorts of substance but she would never ever leave me, US. "Lee! Please! Thats enough!" I hear my Dad shout at me. "Mom died of overdose. I found her in the bedroom with a syringe in her hand, she also took a handful of sleeping pills. Paramedics declared her dead on the spot. They said she was already an hour dead when I found her. She finally did it. She couldn't take the pain away, and decided to end it" Xander tells me with tears in his eyes, heads down, because he probably didn't want me to see him cry. I was stunned. I was trying so hard to contemplate everything. I couldn't move, couldn't speak, couldn't react at all.

My brother notices and holds me in his arms. We just stood their, loss of words, crying our hearts out. Then I noticed Dad coming near us, suddenly I felt this immense heat boiling from inside me. I was mad at him, he's the reason for all of this!. "This is all your fault!!!! you hurt her so much the alcohol and drugs couldn't numb her anymore!!!! Thats why she decided to end it!!!! Instead of taking all the pain you've caused her she must've thought it would be easier to just end it!!!!! its all your fault!!!! All because you can't keep your own dick in your own fucking pants!!! How could you do this to her!!!! you are no Dad to me!!! you're nothing but a cheating,self-centered bastard!!! I hate you!! And I will never forgive you!! Not this time Dad! Not this time!!" I exclaimed.

My words must've sunked through him because he slowly tilted his head down. I got both my Brother and Dad looking at me with shock written all over their faces, afterwards, I stormed to the house and headed straight to my room.

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Hi everyone! Uhm this is my first time to make a story and I have no idea what the hell I'm doing!!!!! :o

It's just... My friends know I'm addicted to reading stories on wattpad and they forced me into doing this. They said it won't kill me to try, so here I am humiliating myself again.

I hope y'all will like it.
If you have some advices you could give me I'd be more that happy to hear them out.

Thankyou so much! :)
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