Infuriating :: KAVETHAM/HAIKAVEH

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Tighnari POV

After I had left the academia, i instantly started crying again. I can't help but feel that if I try to talk to Cyno tonight, it'll just end up in another argument. God, I'm so pathetic.

I walk home to the small hut away from the city that me and Cyno live in. There isn't anything for me to do, so I just play the waiting game for him to come home. I kinda hoped that Kaveh would've offered to talk to him for me, but I have to fight my own battles. This isn't going to get better if someone else is talking to him for me because I'm too weak to.

After a few hours of just sitting around doing nothing and writing notes here and there, I hear the front door open. It's time I have to talk to him. Just thinking about it makes me tear up. I take a deep breath and I exhale before putting my book down and walking towards the entrance of our house to talk to him.

But as soon as I see him, the thoughts of what could happen if I talked to him, ran through my mind. I stood in the doorway connecting the living room and our bedroom, not able to move with tears in my eyes. I have to get this done but... I really don't have the courage to.

I take another breath before walking towards Cyno, tears still threatening to come out.

I look at him and I try my best to smile.

"Hey." I say. HEY??? REALLY???

He looks at me and just turns around to walk towards the kitchen, but before he could do so, I grabbed his wrist. Not tight, but not weakly.

He looks at me, his eyes meeting mine, with an annoyed look on his face. That face soon turned to worry as I choked out a sob.

"Hey, hey. What's wrong?" He asks before pulling me into a hug. I couldn't say anything. I just sobbed into his chest, weakly hugging him back.

"Nari, what happened?"

"I- I wanted to-" I couldn't even finish my sentence before crying again. God this is so embarrassing. We've been dating for years and I can't even talk to him. Is this how he feels?

"Is it about the argument we had?" He asked, resting his head on mine as he rubbed my back gently. I nodded.

"I just-" I choked out another sob. "You started ignoring m-me and I-I-" I started crying again.

"Hey. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to... hurt your feelings. After any argument I tend to avoid everyone. It's just a... coping thing I guess. I'm really sorry, Nari." He says, worry in his voice.

I didn't say anything. All I could do is cry. I was meant to bring it up. I was meant to apologise. But he did it first and I feel like crap. I was meant to talk to him but my pathetic ass kept crying.

"Have you eaten today, love?" He asks. I shook my head no. I hadn't eaten since the argument. I've felt too sick.

"Well I'll make some mushroom stew."

"B-but we don't have any mushrooms." I sniffed, looking up at him with my tear stained face.

"Well, you can show me how to. Show me which ones are bad to eat, which ones are good to eat, and which ones make us feel funky." He laughs.

"Really..? But you don't like the forest."

"I do, I just don't like bugs. Anything else I'm fine with."

"God you're a sook." I chuckled.

"Can we? I've showed you around the desert against your will. I might as well look around the forest with you for ingredients for dinner."

"O-okay. We can." I smile at him as he wipes the tears off of my face and kisses me gently. My tail wags.

"Even after five years of being with you, your tail wagging when I do anything, still makes me feel all mushy inside."

"Never word it like that again." I say, laughing. He laughs with me before taking my hand in his and we make our way to the Avidia forest to look for some mushrooms.