Infuriating :: KAVETHAM/HAIKAVEH

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Long chapter incoming my bad
Over 4.2k words soooo
Be prepared.

Kaveh POV

After two weeks of restlessly working on this car, I am proud to say that it is finally finished. I took a fuck tonne of days off of work to be able to finish this damned car by today. Because today? Me and Alhaithams 4 month anniversary. It feels way longer than four months, mainly because I've known him for more than ten years total.

Ever since I had met Alhaitham, I knew I had some sort of feelings for him. Feelings that I kept hidden away because I just had that fuckass gut feeling that they wouldn't be reciprocated. But when Alhaitham actually asked me to be his boyfriend, I was genuinely the happiest I had been in a long time.

I feel like when Al asked me to be his, I didn't react appropriately. In the inside, I was genuinely ecstatic. I was so happy. But I can't help but feel like I didn't show it enough.

My brain is running a million miles a second with just overthinking and shit like that. It's exhausting. But I want to put all of that aside and just tell Alhaitham that I love him. I've loved him for a long time. Years. And I want to show him- no I want to tell him that. I'm just not sure how he will take it. I don't want to make him overwhelmed or feel pressured in saying it back. I just want to tell him.

He's so gorgeous. And sure, we still argue over stupid stuff, but we're fine by the end of the night. And if he's still overwhelmed, I sleep in my room instead of his, so he can have his alone time. We both need to be alone sometimes. But speaking of that, last night... I'm so happy it happened.

Last night Alhaitham POV

"Okay. Fine. If you want to be like that, you can sleep by yourself tonight." I said to Kaveh sternly after having a yelling match with him. We were arguing about... I can't even remember. And I don't blame either of us for starting the argument. We've been so stressed with work and Kavehs been stressed with not only that, but trying to get this car done by tomorrow, our four month anniversary.

Kaveh looked defeated. The bags under his eyes telling me he's just tired and wants to sleep. He sighs.

"Fine." He says as he sighed in defeat. He then walked to his bedroom and closed the door considerably quiet. He knows that yes, we argued, but that's not an excuse to slam doors, especially when we're both exhausted and I don't have my headphones on.

I sigh and I walk to the bathroom to have a shower. It's currently 2:42 AM and I haven't been able to get a decent nights sleep since the last time I took work off which was last month with Kaveh.

I think I hurt his feelings. But it's too late now. We have to sleep on it, and then talk later in the morning.

I undress myself and get a towel from the cupboard under the basin. I put the towel on the top of the basin, next to the sink, before turning on the shower.

I check the temperature a few times before stepping in and letting it run over my body. I felt the warm water trickle down my face as I thought out loud,

"We haven't argued like that in ages."

I sigh and sit at the bottom of the shower before hugging my legs.

"Did I actually hurt him this time?"
"Was it my fault we argued?"
"What's wrong with me?"
"Why can't I learn to keep my mouth shut?!"

These thoughts spiralled in my brain so much that I felt myself sobbing, unable to tell what was real tears and what was the shower water. I'm just so tired.

I quickly clean myself and compose myself before getting out and drying myself off.

I then head to my room and I get dressed in the cool air. I be sure to dry my hair enough so it doesn't make my pillowcase cold when I lay on it too.