Infuriating :: KAVETHAM/HAIKAVEH

21 (S)

Alhaitham POV

Today was TCG day with the boys. We haven't played altogether since me and Kaveh's argument last time. We thought; 'give it a few days/weeks and we will have a TCG night again.' We didn't want to make it feel like we were rushing the healing from our arguments.

"When do you want to leave, Kaveh?" I asked, combing my hair.

"Mmh. I don't mind. Whenever you do," he replied, lazily brushing his teeth.

"Come back to me when you have a time," I said, annoyed that he didn't give me a specific time.

I actually, originally, wanted to take Kaveh out on a date. Even after all of our arguing, nearly breaking up—twice, he hasn't touched alcohol in two months today. I know he was tempted, as he would occasionally eyeball the bottle of dandelion wine Kaeya left us that one time we met him. I need to get rid of that now that I think about it.

But regardless of all of our arguments and fights, Kaveh stayed so firm about not touching that bottle.

Usually our TCG nights are about getting drunk, but I texted Cyno and Tighnari, letting them know I wanted it to be alcohol free for Kaveh's sake. He hasn't been to any sort of therapy or rehab, and he's genuinely quitting by himself. Actually, the arguments started by him might have also been a bit of withdrawal symptoms too. But regardless. He took it slow at first, and he has completely stopped for two whole months and I am incredibly proud of him.

Kaveh and I haven't spoken about him quitting alcohol since our trip away and I feel like we don't need to, but I still want to commend him for being two months sober. We had agreed that— well, I agreed, that I'd also stop drinking just so it'd be easier for him, not that I drink often anyway, but I feel like that's also apart of why he's been clean.

Kaveh POV

Quitting is so hard. I see that bottle of wine— my favourite wine, and I just have the urge to skull it all. I know that Alhaitham asked the boys to keep tonight alcohol free for my sake and I really appreciate that.

Originally, I didn't want to quit at all. Feeling the burning sensation of vodka going down my throat is one of my favourite things. But seeing Alhaitham not drink is kind of making me want to quit more. Not because 'omg he's not drinking just because I'm trying to quit' but because I feel like I'd be really embarrassed if I relapsed and he didn't. I know he'd tell me that it's okay, and to not be embarrassed, but I can't help but feel that way.

*ding

Tighnari

Hey, man. Just wanted to check up on you.
How's the not-drinking going?

Yeah it's okay I guess.
It's actually super hard, but I haven't had a seizure yet which is good.

I think you've passed the point of having seizures from quitting.

Maybe, but the chance is still there.

How long have you been sober?

Honestly, I haven't even thought about how long.
I've been so close to relapsing so many times, that I just haven't really bothered to record how long I've been sober for.

Fair enough.
We're doing alcohol-free tonight btw.

You guys can drink, I want you to have fun.

I have fun when I beat Cyno.
I don't need alcohol for that.
He doesn't either.

Are you sure?
I don't have to come if you want to drink.