Sudden Disturbance (TRF #5)

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

"Clint, tigilan mo ako. Kapag ako hindi nakapasa rito sa test na 'to, ihahampas ko sa'yo 'tong libro na hawak ko." Banta ko jay Clint na kanina pa ako kinukulit.

Kanina pa siya nangungulit na sabihin ko raw sakaniya iyong buong pagkakakilala namin ni Jax hanggang sa ngayon. Mukha ba akong storyteller? Mag-do-doctor yung tao ginagawa niyang storyteller.

Tinotoo talaga iyong sinabi na nakipag-kaibigan lang para makichismis. Hanep siya, kuhang-kuha niya inis ko.

He whined. "Bakit ka ba kase nag-re-review? Madali lang naman iyon." He said.

Tinignan ko siya nang masama. "Tignan mo ako, Clint." Sabi ko at tinignan niya naman ako. "Mukha ba tayong magkapareho?" Tanong ko.

Agad naman siyang umiling. "Syempre, hindi. Babae ka tapos lalaki ako. Gender palang hindi na magkapareho." Sabi niya.

Ngumiti naman ako nang sarkastiko. "Kaya nga huwag mo akong itulad sa'yo." Giit ko. "Kung iyong test madali lang para sa'yo, pwes sa akin hindi. Kaya hayaan mo akong mag-review nang mapayapa dahil kung hindi, ihahampas ko 'tong librong hawak ko sa ulo mo."

Napalunok siya at agad-agad na tumango. Who wouldn't be scared? The book that I'm holding right now probably weighs about three kilograms or more. It's enough to crush his head if I hit him hard.

After the test, I thought it couldn't get any worse but fucking hell, it did get worse because the whole week I almost didn't sleep because of so many works I had to do.

Akala ko noong second year ko rito sa med school mahirap na. May ihihirap pa pala siya. Third year ko palang, parang ako na ang magiging pasyente, shet.

Sa mga oras na ito, pinagdarasal ko talaga na sana binigyan din ako ni Lord ng kagalingan eh. May favoritism si Lord.

Pero okay lang naman, malapit naman na ang finals. I-pre-prepare ko nalang ang sarili ko para sa fourth year. Alam ko naman na mas malala pa kaysa ngayon ang mararanasan ko. Pero okay lang, at least magiging one step closer na sa pagiging doctor.

Gaslight pa more.

I just sighed problematically and dropped my head on my book. Someone sat beside me and I immediately looked at the person. It was Clint, looking very defeated.

Napakunot ang noo ko. Mukhang mas malala problema nito kaysa sa akin ah? "Anong nangyari sa'yo?" Tanong ko sakaniya.

Napabuntong hininga siya. "Des, pangit ba ako?" Biglaang tanong niya.

Tumaas naman ang kilay ko. "Hindi naman, sakto lang." Kako.

Tinignan niya ako nang masama. "Anong sakto lang?" Inis na tanong niya.

I just shrugged. "Sakto lang ang kapangitan mo." Sagot ko.

He sighed again. Himala, walang sinabi.

Sleepless nights and nights that I never even attempt to eat. My head is spinning, I feel like one more night that I won't sleep and I'll pass out.

"You look tired." Sabi ni Clint at napatingin naman ako sakaniya.

I sighed. "I am tired." Sabi ko at humikab. "Can you finish this for me?" Tanong ko at tumango siya.

"Sure, take a sleep. Baka mamaya, patayin ako ni Jax kase hinayaan kitang maging ganiyan." Turo niya sa akin at tumawa ako.

I lied my head on the table and after a few seconds my vision went black.

I was reviewing for the finals when suddenly, my phone beeped. It's a notification from Instagram.

aasmith

My brows furrowed at the name of the sender. Sino na naman ito, Lord? Bibigyan niyo na naman ba ako ng sakit ng ulo?

I opened the notification and I saw a photo. Jax and a woman. Kissing. Jax.

I inhaled deeply and replied.

desire_akiaguilar: What do you need?

Maybe it was photoshopped, right? Maybe it's just a fake photo. Tears started falling from my eyes, it hurts though. I feel so tired.

aasmith: Jax
-Look at the photo, my dear
-He looks really good with me
-That was taken just last month
-And this has been going on for the last three years you know

I sighed and turned my phone off. Should I believe her? But, I don't even know her.

She sent more photos and that just made me snap.

I called Jax. 

"Come here." I said as soon as he answered then ended the call.

As soon as he entered my condo, I showed him the photos. "Was this taken last month?" Tanong ko sakaniya.

He gulped and slowly nodded. I laughed sarcastically. "Get out. Ayaw na kitang makita." Sabi ko sakaniya.

He immediately protested. "No, let me explain first." He said and I glared at him.

"There's nothing to explain, you yourself already admitted that it was taken last month. Now get the fuck out of here because I can't afford to waste my time on you anymore." I harshly said. Lies. You're ways willing to waste time on him.

He attempted to hold my hand. "Lovely, why not calm down for a bit? Then, we'll talk." He negotiated.

"Anong parte ba ng "ayaw na kitang makita" ang hindi mo naintindihan? Since hindi naman na tayo, I'm not obligated to waste any more time on you. May finals pa ako, Jax. Nag-re-review ako tapos bigla-bigla nalang nag-te-text iyang kabit mo!" Inis na sabi ko.

After I uttered those words, that's when I saw his eyes overflowing with tears.

"You're busy. Right. I'll just talk to you after your finals." He smiled forcefully. "I'll come back next week. I love you." He said and left.

My knees weakened and I sat on the couch. He admitted it. He himself told me that he cheated on me.

Bakit kaya? Sabi niya hindi niya gagawin iyon eh. Sabi niya hindi niya pipiliin na hindi na ako mahalin eh. What were all those words for?

Why did he even make me fall this hard when he planned to do that all along? Bakit hinintay niya pa na kung kailan sobrang hulog na hulog na ako at hindi ko na alam kung paano umahon, saka niya ginawa iyon?

Bakit sa lahat ng tao na pwedeng manakit sa akin, bakit siya pa? Bakit sa dinami-dami ng pwede niyang gawin, bakit iyon pa? Kung sana ayaw na niya e'di dapat sinabi niya.

Hindi iyong wawarakin niya ang puso ko sa ganoong paraan. Masyado naman siyang mapanakit.

After crying for some minutes, I wiped my tears away but they just kept flowing. I faced my books again and started studying again.

Maybe, in that way, hindi na masyadong sasakit kase hindi ko naman siya iniisip. Maybe in that way, my head will be the one that's hurting because of too much information taken and the pain of my heart will subside. 

Iyong tipong sa sobrang pag-aaral ko makakalimutan ko sana siya.

He's evil. He's a as cruel as the devil. I swear to my finals that I'll never see him again. He's a fucking asshole who didn't change at all. He still plays as much as he did when we first met.

He deserves to fucking rot in hell with Satan.