Faded

iii

I'm falling in love

With your blue eyes,

That are always full of laughter

You have a smile that makes me smile

And a personality that draws people in.

You dose out attention;

Varying the proportions based on how

Popular or

Good-looking

the individual is.

You've spoken to Lauren a few times now,

In English, when I'm trying to write

I hear you, talking.

Lauren is my best friend,

And she is very pretty so therefore, receives a lot of your attention.

But sometimes, Lauren can be selfish or ignorant.

Especially because of the new friends we've been making.

She acts differently around them and

Around you.

So in English lessons,

I fall out of love with you,

Jealousy takes control of my pen and writes horrible things

That hide between the lines of my work.

Things I regret even thinking

By the time I'm tucked up in bed,

Reliving the day in my mind,

Surrounded by the dark.

I think about you and your smiling, azure eyes and I find that

I'm desperate to be

A reason why you smile.

But you haven't even said hello to me, so I close my eyes,

And meet you in my dreams instead. 

(found written on the back of an envelope caught in a tree)