Faded

xi

I have been left

To amuse Lauren's new friends

While she spends her 'valuable time' with

You.

I'm starting to regret this obsession

I had with you.

I don't want it anymore,

I hate this pain.

It twists and squeezes my gut every time I

See you two together.

I have to remember I can never

Compete with Lauren and

I will only

Ever be

Second best.

No, last.

But I guess I prefer to stay a forgotten shape

In the background.

Attracting attention will

only make things worse.

I have nothing to impress

You with,

Nothing worth your 

Time.

I still have to talk to Lauren's friends,

Even though I don't like them much.

I don't think I like many people anymore-

Just you.

Sometimes.

Maybe things will change, given time.

Maybe it is just a matter of time

and waiting.

I don't mind waiting.

(found on some paper left at the park)