BTS Eighth Member | The Life: Year 2018

Chapter 21- Standing for Something

May 12th, 2018:

We'd been having meeting after rehearsal after meeting. To say it was tiring, and also at times quite boring, would be an understatement. Jungkook didn't seem to be feeling much better emotionally though I was trying to check in and hang out with him more. I'd even given him my place to have a stress-free date night with SinB in the hopes it would cheer him up a bit.  As for my relationship, I'd only met with Hanbin once since he was travelling around the country performing at festivals.

We were currently recording for our Mnet comeback show since we'd be in the US during the real comeback. We had just finished waving to fans and were walking into the Mnet building when I saw SanE talking to someone in the lobby. I looked away, focusing on Namjoon's back instead, but with our whole team and fans screaming, we were quite the spectacle. He looked our way and smiled.

"BTS!" he shouted, getting our attention.

We all stopped and turned to him bowing, he was still our senior and we had to show due respect.

"It feels like forever since I've seen you guys," he says, coming over and bro-hugging everyone.

He gets to me and brings me into a big hug, kissing my cheek as he lets go making me shirk away. Once he let me go, I immediately put myself behind Seokjin's nearby large frame not wanting to interact with the man anymore. He chatted with the rappers for a minute or two before calling my name, peeking slightly around Seokjin for me.

"Y/N, you're being so shy, I would've thought you'd be more outspoken given all the chaos you caused," he says laughing.

"Chaos?" I reply confused, still standing somewhat behind Seokjin.

"Well, with that whole interview," he says still laughing about it, "I have to say I much prefer this version, sometimes women just want too much you know. Docility is your default, don't you agree boys".

I open my mouth to tell him off, but Yoongi speaks before me.

"No, we don't," Yoongi says in a serious tone, but with a smile to seem likeable.

"The boys know the difference between a woman tolerating them and a woman being truly comfortable and happy," I say, "your docile woman isn't docile for you, she's scared. It's not her default because trust me, if you were actually to let her be her default, you'd realise there's so much more to women than their "docility" and relationship with men".

I could see SanE clench his jaw, but he kept smiling.

"You foreign women are something else huh," he says switching languages, "you like to think you have it made, but you all come to realise reality at some point, trust me. There's a reason you're the only girl in the group".

I turn sideways, pushing Seokjin to the side slightly to show the fans still shouting through the glass doors, giving him a smirk.

"But I do have it made," I smile condescendingly, "I have more than five angry men as my fans. I have millions, including Warren G and Coolio so you'll have to accept my apology if I don't turn docile for you".