𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝒶𝑔𝒶𝒾𝓃 | TAYLOR SWIFT

preparations

Taylor's POV
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After leaving the hospital i call my driver Greg and tell him that we are ready to be picked up and he arrives pretty quickly,
I get him to drive us to the nearest pharmacy to pick up my prescription and then he takes us back to my hotel where my mom is waiting.

The police officer who brought us to the hospital explained that Maddie can stay with me until we have the DNA results which eased my nerves a lot, but he did mention that if her parents decide to drive up here before we get the results then they are allowed to see her which concerns me because she seems so scared of them but I'm staying hopeful that nothing will happen and then she will be finally home where she belongs with me.

My mom has been messaging me non stop as well as all of my friends asking how it went but i really just wanted to spend the night focusing on Mads so i only replied to my mom because she is waiting for us at the hotel.

Im hoping she will be able to look after Maddie during my show tomorrow night, but i know that Gigi, Blake and Selena have said they may come down here to watch it too which means they could maybe look after her while i am on stage because i know they are dying to see her. I just want to make sure she is safe and i don't have to worry so that i am still giving my best for the fans. I don't think i am going to announce finding Maddie to the media until we have the results because as much as my heart is telling me she is mine i have this small part of me yelling that i shouldn't get my hopes up because i will just get crushed if she isn't. I think its a little to late for that, the small girl has already laid claim on my heart but I've still gotta prepare for the what ifs.

I know Blake is super excited to see her so i am sure she would love to look after Maddie tomorrow if she ends up coming to the concert, she was very involved in Maddie's life when she was a baby and was almost of heartbroken as me when she was taken, not only that but she was there when it happened. She seen the pure fear course through my blood and my cries and screams of dread when I realised what had happened. We cried together and she stayed at my house for weeks after it happened looking after me because i had lost all motivation to do it myself.

I thought that the first few weeks after it happened were the worst but it turns out the small things like Christmas and her birthdays were even more heartbreaking.
The small gifts i wrapped for her knowing no one was going to open them, the cakes i baked and had to blow out the candles myself, the nursery she slept in still haunts me but i can never get rid of it I promised myself it would be there for her when she returned.

Of course i changed small things in her room as the years without her passed, like her crib became a small bed with a toddler head frame so she wouldn't hurt herself when she came home. Her changing table became a chest of drawers filled with unused clothes i wished i could see her wear  and her baby crib mobile became a small pink flower night light. Suitable for her age as she grew without me.

Now she is here. With me. She is safe. Maybe her room will be used again.

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The small child curled in my arms is releasing small snores as i carry her through the hotel towards our room, she fell asleep pretty quickly during the car ride home and i decided it was best to just let her sleep.

The paparazzi outside the hotel seemed to have lost interest today because there were no cameras waiting for us when we arrived which relieved me because i know that it can be very overwhelming for a small person to have to deal with all those cameras and attention. I also was nervous about her face being plastered on articles so soon and having to have to deal with all of the rumours of who she is.

When we finally arrive at our hotel room after having to walk an insane amount of stairs due to the elevator being out of order, i slip my key card into the door and the small buzzing noise unlocks it for me.

I step inside and notice my mom reading a book while laying on her bed. I quietly shut the door behind me trying not to wake the sleeping child and slowly walk towards my bed where i lay her down letting her nap, my arms thanking me from no longer having to carry the dead weight. It's not that she is heavy, shes actually alarmingly light with her small ribs poking out of her top, but carrying her for so long made my arms ache. I grab her bunny teddy out of my bag and lay it in her small arms which she quickly accepts by snuggling into it making my cheeks hurt from my large smile.

"how did it go?" My mom whispers bending the side of her page and putting her book down on her duvet.

"shes here. Thats all i care about right now." I sigh as i bend down to take off my shoes.

"we did the test and she is allowed to stay with me until we know, so i guess this is the best i could of asked for at the minute." I continue grabbing out the pyjamas Maddie wore the night before to get her changed. We seriously need to buy some more clothes for her.

"i just want answers mom." I say looking up at her but she is focused on the small sleeping child in my bed.

"its her Tay i can feel it in my heart. Let's just focus on the right now okay?" She says optimistically and i nod in response walking over to my bed and sitting against my headboard, i slowly start undressing Maddie trying my hardest not to wake her up when she is finally stripped down i carefully dress her into her pyjamas frowning at the bruises that cover her fragile arms and tiny stomach and lay her back down to finish her nap.

I continue filling mom in about the day and the doctors advise and we then start discussing plans for tomorrow's concert.

"i am gonna fly home tomorrow
(A/N i cant remember where i said they are so they need to get a plane home now 😀)
but I'm sure Blake will happily look after Maddie while you preform?" she says to which i hum in thinking before grabbing my phone out to message said woman.

Blake 🥂🤍

-Tay🐱- hey just wondering if your still coming to tomorrows show? If you are would you be up to looking after Mads in VIP tent?
Don't feel pressured i can ask the other girls if you're not up for it!

A/N - I'm kinda just making things up for this concert cause unfortunately it did the actually happen 😪 so yeah! Lovers fest would have been so good