𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝒶𝑔𝒶𝒾𝓃 | TAYLOR SWIFT

Pap

Maddie's POV
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When we step outside it gets really loud and i am tired and thirsty so i just want them to be quiet.

Taylor is keeping me warm in her jacket so i just rest my head back into her chest hiding myself away from the flashing lights that are basically blinding me.

Im not sure how Taylor deals with them because she doesn't even have a coat to hide into and she has to deal with this every day.

The soothing 'lub dub, lub dub, lub dub' of her heart makes me feel safe and happy so i drown out all the rest of the noise from the noisy questions being thrown at us and instead settle into her security that she gives me until we reach the black suv that was waiting for us.

When the door slams behind us and i peek out from my spot in her arms i see small wet tears surfacing Taylors eyes and i gasp a little.

I don't want to upset her but i don't know how to stop people from crying.

The only person i ever really had to comfort at home was myself and i could never get myself to stop crying when I'm sad because I'm stupid so how am i supposed to do that for her?

I hold my hand up to her face and press it against her cold rosy cheek.

She smiles down at me with a tear rolling down and sniffles a little.

"its okay Taylor. The cameras are gone now." I say lifting myself from the inside of her jacket even more until i am just sat in her lap in the stationary vehicle.

She chuckles a wet laugh and squeezes my cheeks softly, nothing like when my mommy does it to hurt me, instead it feels nice.

"yeah they are gone." she agrees laying her head against the head rest on the seat and sighing heavily.

"why are you sad." i ask cautiously in case she doesn't want me to ask, all tiredness i was feeling before gone at the idea of her being unhappy.

She looks me in the eyes with a warm gaze and strokes my head like I'm a dog.

"i just want you to be able to stay with me forever." she answers truthfully while wiping her teary eyes but keeping me close as she wraps her arm around my back protectively.

"i wish i could stay forever. You make me feel safe." I whisper back like it is a dirty secret that I shouldn't have said. Maybe it is, but Taylor heard.

It makes her begin to cry even harder and she pulls me onto her chest holding me possessively like someone might steal me away.

The driver notices some paps trying to get photos through the tinted windows with there cameras so he drives off while Taylor cries in the backseat with me laying flat on her chest.

This must be why Taylor hired him because he totally ignores the scene happening a few centimetres away from him.

"you don't need to cry Taylor." I comfort, trying to sit up but failing as her hands are holding me in place.

I don't mind because she is very comfortable and warm but i don't like that she is crying because i said i wanted to stay with her.

If it makes her happy again i will go back with mommy and daddy right now, i just thought she wouldn't mind because she said she wanted me to stay but maybe she was just saying that to make me feel better before she gave me back.

"i don't mind going back to mommy and daddy i was just kidding Taylor!" i continue, denying the sentence that made her sad but this just makes her even sadder as fresh tears falls down.

"please stop crying i didn't mean to make you sad i will go back to mommy and daddy now if it will make you happy again." I ask fiddling with the rings on her fingers saddened at the idea of going home, i really don't want too but i will for Taylor.

She shakes her head and i stare back confused at what she wants.

Maybe she is on her period, mommy says that when she is on her period she wants to kill me sometimes because everything i do agitates her, she also cries a lot and has very weird moods swings maybe thats whats happening right now for Tay.

"are you on your period." i ask curiously and she stops crying and looks down at me with an expression i can't quite understand.

I meet her eyes and a small smirk corners her lips until she starts laughing.

Okay she's definitely on her period.

"where did you learn that." she laughs, her face still wet and her bangs slightly sticking to her forehead.

I shrug my shoulders slightly and mumble,

"my mommy cries all the time when she is on her period. She goes from being happy to sad to angry really quickly."

"hmm." she replies as she releases her hands from around my back and begins to try and make herself look less like she just had a meltdown in the car.

"are we getting our special test result today." i ask and she nods with a smile.

"we are." she replies with a sad undertone that she tries to cover with her fake happy expression.

"does that mean I'm going home today." i question carefully as it seems like a sensitive subject for Taylor.

"Im not sure babe. Maybe."  she replies kissing my forehead and i just nod in response leaning back onto her chest to hear her heart again.

"can we still be friends please?" i say quickly earning a tight squeeze in response.

"of course we can if your parents say its okay." she replies and i know that means we can't be friends because they will say no, I'm not allowed anything nice and Taylor is the nicest person ever so she will be a definite no.