𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝒶𝑔𝒶𝒾𝓃 | TAYLOR SWIFT

bathtime

Taylors POV
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Ignoring everyone as i walk down the hallway towards my bathroom with the small child balanced on my hip, whispering sweet nothings into her ear every so often, i finally take a breath and feel small unshed tears sting my eyes at how chaotic everything has been.

I never understand how deep Maddie's trauma really was until now and it breaks my heart that she is this deeply afraid even just of men.

I don't know what those people did to her yet but i can tell it wasn't good and the fact she was so upset she even had an accident really just shows the lack of love she was shown with her so called 'family'.

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My bathroom consists of a small but efficient bath connected to a shower, usually used after a show when i am all sweaty and just want to be clean before going home.

When we enter the room i attempt to set Mads on the floor resulting in a small whimper and her small fists clenching onto my outfit as she digs her head further into my front forcing her face between my breasts.

"we need to get you cleaned up Mads." I say, placing my hand on the back of her head and playing with her blonde delicate curls.

"don't wanna go down Taylor." she whines upsetting herself further making me instantly begin thinking of any way to make this better for her.

"okay ill try get you undressed in my arms okay?" I ask and she nods shakily in my arms.

In the most uncomfortable way possible i use all of my limbs to keep her balanced as i undo the back of her dress and slowly pull it down her body leaving her just in her damp underwear in my arms.

I take a moment just holding her in my arms to begin running the bath and take out the ribbons tied around her blonde locks.

realising she has no underwear for after her bath i send Tree a quick message to grab something and put my phone back down to now try and get the girl into the water.

"alright I'm gonna take these of now and then I'm gonna put you in okay?" I say slowly tugging her knickers down and throwing them to the side in a reminder to find some sort of bag to put them in until i can wash them.

"i no wanna go in." She whispers slowly giving up with her pleading as she thinks i am going to force her in.

"how about i come in with you?" I ask her and she looks towards the bath and back to me and nods innocently.

Tree is going to kill me.

"okay I can't get my hair or makeup wet though okay?" I say and she nods eagerly although I'm not sure she was listening as she now is basically jumping in my arms trying to get into the now full bath.

"careful baby." I giggle undressing myself and stepping into the water, sitting myself against the wall stopping my hair from entering the water.

Maddison scoots between my legs and lays her belly against mine, legs straddling my stomach as her face lays once again in the apex of my breasts.

"Comfy?" I mutter amused at her adorable position as she answers.

"umfy."

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After washing her body with the strawberry shower soap i leave in my bathroom i stand earning a gasp from the small girl.

"cold." she giggles, her mood slowly becoming the bubbly girl once again.

"is it cold baby." I laugh, quickly wrapping  a towel around us both and taking a seat on the closed toilet.

She leans into the warmth of my body as the towel engulfs us, allowing me time to check my phone to see if Tree responded.

I see she had responded telling me she was on her way to the bathroom not long ago so i decide to just wait and sit like this until she comes.

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Not long after theres a small knock on the door and then a tall redhead enters the room with a plastic bag.

She walks towards me and bends down to my ear and whispers.

"i decided to just grab her a diaper just incase, because of tonight okay?"

I just nod in response smiling at her in appreciation and take the bag from her hand.

She waves at the small blonde girl peeking from my chest and blows her a kiss earning a shy smile before she exits the room again.

I stand from the toilet seat and lay a clean towel on the floor to get her diaper on before grabbing the clothes she came here in so that she can be a little comfier than in a big dress.

"ready?" i say and she nods as i grab out the diaper from the bag.

"i don't need that Taylor I'm a big girl it was just an accident." She whispers like it's still a secret between just the two of us.

I nod and respond,
"I know it was an accident but this way if it happens again then theres no need to get upset okay? If its dry when we get back to the hotel then thats fine and if its not then thats fine too okay?" I explain while opening up the diaper and gently lifting her hips to put it on.

She looks at me curiously and nods but stays silent as i finish strapping it on.

"will you be angry if i go on accident again?" she says snapping out of her silence making me instantly shut down her thought.

"Absolutely not if it happens again then thats fine babe, i will never get angry at something that you can't help okay? As long as you are comfortable and not upset then it's perfectly okay with me." I smile placing a tender kiss on her forehead.

i stand up leaving her laying in just her diaper as i grab her underwear and place them into the now empty plastic bag, tying it up and walking into my dressing room, dropping it onto the couch, i look back to the bathroom and see the toddler has followed me in here as she carries her clothes in her arms and waddles toward me.

Her dainty ribs stick out as she stands basically nude in front of me and i wince at how fragile she looks.

"Come here I'll help you get changed." I went on, patting the soft cushion seat of the couch with the palm of my hand and she messily throws herself next to me.

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After getting her changed and having a few more cuddles i finally get myself back into my clothes and leave my room with Maddie walking beside me, hand in mine as we try and find Tree to decide what to do.