𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝒶𝑔𝒶𝒾𝓃 | TAYLOR SWIFT

Aftermath

Cant remember if i read through 😭any mistakes or anything doesn't make sense let me know ill fix it ☺️

Taylor's POV
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After too much crying, my eyes dry up and i notice that my daughter is fast asleep in my arms, her tear stained cheeks still rosy from the weather and her eyelashes still damp from her salty tears.

Her crying shocked me a little but i understand for such a small person today must have been a lot.

If she understood anything that the doctor had told us then she is most likely confused because her whole world is changing around her which she has no control over.

I stand up with her attached to me like a small koala and place the hats we brought back over our heads to make sure the paps don't catch sight of our faces, especially since i look like i just watched the plane crash episode of greys again.

The walk back to reception was quite embarrassing considering that the people who were close enough could see my puffy red eyes, but i focused my attention on getting home so that i can cry to my mom on the phone and decide what to do next.

Now that i know the truth it's all becoming even more complicated. I need to find out who these people she was living with where and why they had her. I need to call my lawyer.

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Sitting on the hotel bed i have been sleeping in for the past few weeks, my suitcase open and laying on the floor with clothes spilling out and over its sides from my failed attempt of packing and my sleepy girl sprawled out with her mouth agape beside me as light snores fall from her, i think about the events that have lead to this moment.

The truth is i feel as though i have done nothing to get here. I had to place my trust into so many other people and just wait.

thats all I'm doing recently. Waiting.

Waiting for results, waiting for her to open up to me, waiting for the truth and now I'm waiting again, praying that these people get what they deserve for how they have failed to look after my daughter.

I don't know the extent of the abuse she has endured while living with those monsters and if she decides to never tell me about it then maybe i never will, but it's clear she doesn't trust without a reason too and she scares too easily for my liking.

My conversation with the lawyer and the police on the case was an emotional one, now with the evidence that she was living with people that had no relation to her a more thorough investigation has began to find out there motives and how they got away with her.

Of course i want them to be locked away for a long time as well as anyone else involved but that can't happen unless there is evidence, her health is enough evidence to prove she was neglected to a major extent, but to prove that they were also abusive, Maddie would have to talk in court or open up to a lawyer who can talk for her and I'm honestly not sure she is ready for that.

On a positive note my milk has finally came in, although it's still a small amount at the moment it still makes me feel useful, like i can finally do something that will help her instead of just sitting back and waiting like i have had to do for the past 5 years, praying that i would get a call or an update on my kidnapped child.

When she wakes up i am going to try and have a conversation about it and explain why she needs breastmilk and see what she thinks. I want it to be on her terms, no other way.

If she is uncomfortable i will of course buy a pump and just allow her to use a sippy cup to drink it like that instead but i must admit as much as i would support anything she wanted, it would make me a little disappointed if that is what she chose.