Mystic Johnosn's BEAUTY - in killing.

Chapter 35

Being transcendent with every touch from Scott. In a moment I was not myself, my soul was removed from my body and yet every kiss kept me grounded. The entire relationship between us had always been contradicted, only this time the kisses were different. It was the confirmation I desired from him. I begin to have the feeling to crawl out of my own skin, and once again he pulled away from me.

"What is it?" Asking, as I watch him to make sure he doesn't run from me again like he did before.

"I shouldn't have done that, I am sorry."

Shaking my head, with the look of confusion on my face.

"What?" He asks his voice irritated.

"Just take me home Scott." This took him by utter surprise.

"I will not be leaving you with some psychopath Lillith!"

"At least he is direct on wat he wants."

Scott angled his jaw before letting out a breath." Lillith, I suggest you keep that mouth of yours shut."

How dear he talks to me in such way, I am not a child, I am not his servant nor am I under any obligation to take orders from him. I am an independent woman! I feel myself snap with frustration.

"Stop telling me what to do! I am nothing more than frustrated with all your mind games Scott I am done with them." I went to leave the room, Scott shut the door tightly and locked it.

"It is way to dangerous out."

"I feel safer out there at this point."

Scott lowered his head and sighed before locking his eyes with mine. "What is it you want from me Lillith?" As he began to raise his voice at me. "Marriage proposal? Friends with benefits? What is it? Tell me."

"I want honestly. I want you to be honest about me, about how it is you feel towards me Scott."

"I cant!"

"Tell me why.."

"I cannot control myself Lillith." His face now pink with embarrassment. "Every second I am around you I have to claw myself away, you're so innocent so pure I cannot take that.. I wont let myself take that from you. I fight every urge because I don't want you to hate me and yet I cannot stand being without you..." He brushes my cheek with his hand.

"Why not just tell me this.."

"Because I don't do this, I don't do relationships and I don't care for people. But then there is you Lillith... You have made me crazy. Ever since I saw you for the first time."

"At the shed?"

"At the football game."

I felt confused at this moment, what does he mean we met almost 7 months ago..

"Yes we did meet in the shed, but... About 7 months ago there was a football game at your school, I saw you there. You've been driving me nuts since then..."

"You didn't say anything."

"I am at least 10 years older than you. I really wouldn't say that's something to have bragging rights about. The fact that I am in fact falling in love with you. One problem is I can be sent to jail for being with you." Scott came to a complete frozen stance at his own confession.

"Falling for me?"

"I fell a while ago."

I feel my eyes feel with light as he walks up to me closely.

"There is nothing more that I want than to throw you up against this door right now and kiss every single inch of you until you burst completely. Though I am a gentleman and I say goodnight."

"Even gentleman give goodnight kisses." Saying with a smile. He leans in and places a soft kiss on my soft lips before leaving the room beside mine. Just before entering he walks towards me once more, gently backed me up against the wall kissing me with great passion.

"I had forgotten how much I have been wanting to do that." Giving me a smile "If you need anything, I am right over here.."

I nodded "Goodnight Scott."

"Goodnight Lillith." His voice soothing and was now content, matching with his eyes. Before getting to bed, I felt accomplished, I now knew how Scott felt though a dark cloud still reigned over me. He was not the first who touched me. With this I looked at myself with tear filled eyes in wonder how he would still love me after finding that I am tainted...