Sam was studying the 2 mysterious letters that Cas had written. "Wait...I figured out the 1st letter!!" He exclaimed. "What does it say?" Dean asked. Cas remained stoic, sitting in a chair wit the tube in his nose and an IV in his arm. He only had to wear the tube for 2 more weeks. He stared at Sam wit a blank expression, his sunken eyes wide. He was shaking slightly. He always did now. "It says 'This is for the snakes and the people that they bite, for the friends that I have made, for the sleepless nights. For the warning signs that I have completely ignored, there is an amount to take, and reasons to take more. It is no big surprise that I have turned out this way. Sam and Dean closed their eyes and prayed that I would change. They cut my hair and sent me away. Meg stopped at the house the night that I escaped. Wit tears in her eyes, Meg begged me to stay. I said hey, man, I love you, but no fucking way.'" Sam looked up in confusion. "Cas? What does all this mean?"
Castiel's shaking increased slightly. "E-exactly what it says!! The snakes are demons. The people that they 'bite' are innocent whenever they possess their bodies. The friends that I have made are you, Dean, Bobby, and others. The sleepless nights are sense I am an angel, I do not sleep and whenever I tried to sleep in Glenwood Springs, it was hard. The warning signs were that I was sick. The amount is my weight and more is how much I can lose. It is no big surprise that I have turned out this way because I have been sick for a while, so it is no surprise that I gotten worse. You and Dean prayed that I would change whenever I started acting up and whenever I did not let you guys leave the bunker. You did not cut my hair but it feels like my wings are clipped and bloody. But you guys did send me away, to Glenwood Springs. Meg wanted me to stay there forever, deep down. And there were tears in my eyes but, I mean, no fucking way!!"
Sam and Dean just stared. {This was a mistake bringing him back here.} Dean thought. {This bastard is so fucking sick...I have an idea.} "Ok, Sam. Why don't you try to decode the 2nd letter? Cas, come wit me. I want to talk to you." "O-ok." Cas weakly and shakily gotten up. "Here, we can take these out for now." Dean ripped out his IV and ripped off the tape on his face, but took the tube out gently and slowly. "Dean...you are not supposed to rip out my IV like that!! Plus, I mostly need them pretty much all day!!" "Oh, relax!! I will just be a second wit you." He wrapped his entire hand around Castiels thin pale arm kind of roughly and led him to a room in the back of the bunker. "Dean!! Please walk slower..." Cas said, feeling very weak. He rolled his eyes. "Sorry." He walked slowly, even though it made him feel impatient.
Whenever they gotten to the room, Dean closed the door and locked it, making sure that Cas did not know that it was locked. "So...you feel better now?" Dean asked, being kind now. "Um...yes? But I could use my IV. I feel...dizzy." He stumbled a bit. Dean gently grabbed his arm. "Maybe you should lie down, hm?" Cas nodded, "What am I doing in here anyway? What did you want to talk to me about?" "We will talk about that in a minnet." Dean lied him in the malack box. "I-is this the...the malack box? Why do you even still have it?! What am I doing in here?! I do not want to die!! HEL-" Dean roughly put his big hand over Castiel's mouth. "Shh!! Would you fucking relex? Jesus...I just lied you in here so that you did not pass out!!" "S-sorry...I just gotten scared..." "It's ok..." Dean quietly muttered a Latin spell under his breath to make Cas fall asleep. "Inveni ingeniam, mens mea aperi Claustris cogitationum, spiritus libera Musae, ad me venite, carmina expergifacite Fluant verba mea, nova et audentia." "What are you saying, Dean?" Cas asked, suddenly scared. He had a bad feeling in his stomach and his heart was racing. Dean slowly closed the lid. Just as Cas was about to scream, all that came out was a small croak. He suddenly felt very tired. {What is happening to me...I cannot trust anybody...} He curled up in a ball and went into a deep sleep.
"Hey, where did cas go?" Sam asked. "Just taking a nap." Dean replied casually, a little too casually. Sam arched an eyebrow but did not question further.
a few hours later, tho, Sam still did not see Cas. Dean was asleep, so Sam decided to investigate.
He looked all around the bunker, but did not find him. He decided to go in the very back room, where the malack box was. He heard ragged breathing that sounded like it was coming from inside somewhere. "Cas?" Sam whispered, looking around. He eyed the malack box. He slowly opened it and almost gasped whenever he seen Cas inside.
He was lying in there weakly, not breathing too well. Sam quickly grabbed him and lied him on the ground. "Cas!! What the hell?! Wake up!! Why were you in the malack box?!"
Cas slowly came to and started hitting Sam weakly, although he did manage to scratch him a little wit his nails. "Ow!! Cas, it is just me!!" Cas had tears in his eyes. "Thank God..." He whispered. Sam slowly helped him sit up. "Why were you in there?" "Dean...he made me...I really need my iv..." "Of course..." Sam quickly went to retrieve it. "Here you go." He inserted it in Castiels arm. He sighed in relief.
"So what happened?"
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The Red Spiral𖦹
Fanfiction𖦹𖦹𖦹 in which Castiel slowly loses his grip on reality. trigger warning for eating disorders, self-harm, and suicide. (my biggest story yet !!)