Cas groaned as he gotten up from off the floor whenever Elara threw him against the wall. He hit his head pretty hard, so now he was dizzy. ''W-what do you mean about the deep end?'' He mumbled. Elara grabbed 1 of his bony arms and yanked him up. Cas blinked lazily at her, he knew that he had to be careful about what he thought, knowing that she could hear his thoughts. Cas had stopped crying now. ''W-what do you mean cure my mental illnesses 'once and for all?''' ''Dont you worry about that. You will see. You are getting no damn feeding tube here either. You will eat solid foods or else it will be shoved down your throat. You can have your IV, though. Do you understand? Now, it is time for you to go to bed. Bedtime is at 8:00 and we get up at 8:00 for breakfast. Do you understand?'' ''Yes...'' Elara let go of his arm and he stumbled a bit. He slowly made his way to the creepy-looking bed. Elara given him just as creepy of a smile before slamming the door shut. Cas lied in bed, wishing that he had the plush bee that Meg given him. His head was pounding and he was feeling a little woozy. He eventually drifted off to sleep, uneasily.
He was woken up at 7 : 45 by a hand shaking him. He woke with a start, scared that he overslept and Elara was going to punish him. He slowly sat up, his headache gone but still feeling a bit strange. {I must have hit my head pretty hard.} he thought. He rubbed his eyes. ''Who are you...?'' He mumbled, looking up at the boy. The boy had brown hair with a few blonde streaks and brown eyes. He seemed timid. He wore a sweater with jeans. ''My name is Ezra.'' He replied quietly. ''What...is it time for breakfast?'' Cas asked. Ezra nodded twice. Cas slowly gotten out of bed. ''Do you know the way?'' Ezra nodded twice.
Cas followed him. ''Why are you here?'' Ezra asked quietly.
''That is a loaded question. Is yours any simpler?'' Ezra nodded twice. ''Severe kleptomania. They sent me here instead of jail.'
'' Cas wracked his brain, but he had not heard of that before. ''What is...klepto...?'' ''A condition where I impulsively feel the need to steal things. If I don't, something terrible will happen. I feel relief after taking something. And a little guilty. Most of the time it is small stuff that I do not need and can afford. But I have to take it. It is such a rare condition...nobody understands.'' Cas nodded. ''Wow...''
They arrived at the breakfast room. Elara was there. She glared at Cas. ''Sit down.'' She ordered. Cas did so. She put a plate of food in front of him. Cas gulped. Was this really how recovery was suppost to be? He had not ate physical food in so long . . . he gulped again. Ezra, sitting next to him, noticed this behavior. ''You have an eating disorder, dont you?'' He said quietly. ''Anorexia or bulimia?'' Cas just stared. ''Please dont tell me that you can read my mind too.'' A shadow of a smile tugged on the corner of Ezra's mouth. ''No...I just know these things. You look skinny anyway, plus you have scars on your knuckles from biting down on them so hard while you purged.'' Cas was amazed at this man's profiling skills. ''How old are you?'' Cas asked. ''19. You?'' ''25...'' ''That scar on your neck...you tried to kill yourself.'' Cas looked down. ''Yeah...'' ''ENOUGH TALKING MORE EATING!!'' Elara snapped, scaring Cas a bit. Ezra ate while Cas has taken tiny bites of the toast. It tasted strange. He decided to just drink his orange juice. That tasted a little weird, too. He noticed that everybody else at the table had milk. ''Um...what about these other people? Why are they here?''
Ezra pointed to a woman. ''Her name is Anya. She is here for severe anxiety.'' Ezra then pointed to another guy. ''His name is Kenji. Has severe depression and bipolar disorder. He tried to kill himself multiple times.'' He pointed to another person, cas was not sure what gender they were. ''Their name is Zara. PTSD And schizophrenia.'' He pointed to another boy. ''Liam. OCD And a panic disorder.'' He pointed to the last lady. ''Lilly. BPD and a pathological liar.'' Cas was amazed. ''Oh my...'' He couldn't bring himself to ask why he was the only person with orange juice. ''What happens if I do not finish my breakfast?'' ''I don't care to find out.'
'' Elara clapped her hands loudly. ''OK!! TIME IS UP FOR BREAKFAST!!'' Cas looked down at his plate, he had eaten about half of it. Elara sneaked up to him. ''Care you explain to all of us why the fuck you did not finish'' Everybody stared at him, except Ezra. ''U-Um...'' Cas felt his heart rate go up. He did not like this at all. Suddenly, Elara slapped him. Cas was shocked. ''W-what? Why did you do that?!'' Elara gotten real close to his face. ''If you do not finish breakfast tomorrow, it will only be worse.'' She yanked his plate away from him and walked away. Cas felt his cheek stinging. {I just want to go home...I miss Sam and Dean so much...} He thought. Everybody left the table. ''Come on,'' Ezra said gently. Cas slowly gotten up. ''Why are you being so nice to me?'' He asked. ''Becuse I can tell that you are scared. You were at a mental hospital previous to this, weren't you?'' Cas nodded. ''Yes, Glenwood Springs. It was so much better than here...'' Ezra nodded twice. ''So...what do we do all day?'' Cas asked. ''We will have therapy at noon. Recreational time until 5:30, then dinner, then bed at 8.'' Ezra explained. ''How long have you been here?''
''Long enough to know the truth,'' Ezra replied quietly.
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The Red Spiral𖦹
Fanfic𖦹𖦹𖦹 in which Castiel slowly loses his grip on reality. trigger warning for eating disorders, self-harm, and suicide. (my biggest story yet !!)