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by starlite_33

it's been a sloppy ride.

I don't feel like myself.

Allot of things happened in a short amount of time.

I do applaud myself for not acting out.

It wasn't easy to stop me from doing things I know I'd regret later.

Its why you shouldn't make decisions when your emotional unless you want a mess.

It may feel so right at the moment but moments like those fade away quickly.

I don't know where I am.

I have been in my mind lately stuck for a while.

Unfortunately, not long enough to come up with a decision.

I have been healing unintentionally.

It's just that I am not sure if my healing is correct.

My mind is a sea.

I am floating in it letting the unbalanced waves carry me away from everything.

Gazing at the endless sky.

Allowing the tranquility of it to hypnotize me.

Even when the waves get high enough to drown me, I don't move.

I stay hopping that the waters embrace offers an escape.

Maybe it's not so bad.

Maybe, just maybe the world beneath the sea would be much better than the surface.

And maybe then the chaos wouldn't reach me.