ALONE (Nymfia's dairy)

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I can't wait to go out alone.

I haven't done it in a while.

It feels like it's been ages.

The feeling of getting ready.

Making sure I look good.

Planning my outfit beforehand.

Leaving the house.

Getting dropped at the entrance.

Walking all the way to the restaurant.

"a table for one please"

Ordering food.

Getting desert.

It's so beautiful.

Everything falls into the right place.

My mind, my body and my heart all in the right place.

I don't have to speak so much.

I don't have to wait for someone.

I don't have to do anything.

I like not doing much when I am out.

I love it when I don't have someone's attention.

I love it when I don't carry the conversation.

I love it when I eat then look up and find no one sitting in front of me.

I can chew my food without having to force it down quickly just to speak.

Speaking so much is bad.

I don't hate myself.

I don't hate myself as much when I am alone.

I don't hate myself as much.

I actually don't hate myself.

I don't have to be nice when I am alone.

I don't feel like I owe anything or anyone when I am alone.

I don't have to be sweet. I don't have to be someone. I don't have to be anything.