ALONE (Nymfia's dairy)

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When I get sad because the lonely feeling comes, I know it will only last a couple of hours or a day at most.

I am worried because it's been longer than a day.

It's too long.

I don't know why I cried.

I don't know why I still want to.

I should be okay.

I am okay.

I am beautiful.

I am perfect.

I have been alone for so long and I love it.

I loved it.

The fact that I am not loving it so much is driving me insane.

I am alone not only because I romanticized it.

I am alone because I know I am meant to be.

That's why I exist.

I am supposed to be alone.

This has always been my meaning.

This has always been my reason.

If anything, more than that then I am an object of desire.

An art piece.

I am okay with people lusting for me.

I am okay with being a slut. A whore.

At least I am useful.

At least I am unforgettable.