The Darker Side Of Fantasy: Chapter I

PART 36: I ONLY SEE YOU AS A STRANGER

AMELIA'S POV

When I heard Chris shouting at me and acting like this it felt as if I was just talking to a complete stranger like I don't recognize him anymore. All this time, I'm trying to change it and make things better because things doesn't have to be like this it can be different I know that. I just don't want to be put in the middle or be a second choice. I sighed heavily as I get out of the car as we are back to our apartment. Not even looking at Tony at all not that I'm mad at him or anything. I then started to pack my bags as I wipe a tears on my face holding it all together even though things aren't good.

"We're leaving now." I say seeing Tony standing at the front of the door

"Look here, I'm sorry what I said earlier...I shouldn't have done that...the way I shouted at you was so wrong of me in many ways..." he says sighing

"It's okay...I just really want us to leave....like right now." I say brining the bags to the car

He just nodded his head and helped me carry the things to the car as he told me that he's going to drive since it's not really safe for me to drive in this condition. We drove to the airport and booked a flight it was quiet late when we did so. Finally when we reached home we just were completely tired and it was past midnight. We went to his house since I don't have a home anymore seeing what the mafias did to our home. Tony had said that we would be checking it out tomorrow or sometime soon.

There were only two rooms one was his bedroom and the other was his gaming room I couldn't sleep there since there was no mattress or anything. He told me it would be okay if I could sleep in his room while he slept downstairs on the couch. Tony felt comfortable sitting downstairs on the couch than leave me to sleep cold.

"Listen...if you need anything like blankets or anything it's in the black cupboard inside." he says grabbing his pillow and placing it down

"I forgot to mention, you've gotten a new house I didn't take note of that until now...I guess I'm really tired and not in the mood for anything I guess." I say chuckling

"Yeah...got a new job also...life has been pretty fine with me should I say." he says

"Okay...I'll see you then...goodnight." I say heading upstairs to the room

15 MINUTES LATER....

I tossed and turned all night in bed trying to get a good night rest when all I could think about was all the awful things Chris said to me. I just couldn't shake the feeling of being felt like I'm always last. I got out of bed and went downstairs to see Tony, as I went there he looked like he was fast asleep until I accidently woke him.

"Hi...sorry I didn't mean to wake you." I whisper

"No...It's fine I wasn't also really tired and sleepy it's okay. What's wrong?" he says smiling and confused

"I just can't sleep for some reason...I keep on thinking on what Chris said to me...all those bad things and those awful words he used it was just terrifying." I say sitting down next to him

"Hey, we'll get through this? Okay? I promise." he says putting his hand on my lap

He was my first love and we never really had a bad thing going on before he started to act weird and stalk me. Before, he was different like nicer, sweet, and kind, loyal, honest he just is different somehow in some way. I never really told him the way I felt for him it was like I couldn't but that time I never wanted to ruin the moment so I didn't.

"Do you want me to go make you a cup of hot chocolate?" I say standing up looking at him

"Sure let me help you." he says getting up with me as we go to the kitchen

He then instructs me on where the sugar and the stuff is at. I then take the cups of hot chocolate and give one to Tony.

"Here this is for you." I say with a light smile

"Thank you." he says smiling back at me

"You've really changed a lot I can see that." I say

"Yes...and all the times you hated me it's okay I deserved that." he says shrugging

"Thank you also for uhm...being here now with me while I have nobody's support except for you." I say hugging him as he is astonished at what I just did

"I'll always be here for you if you need me it's okay if you are still mad and you hate me I understand why." he says as we both look at each other

I tried to resist him and no to make that much eye contact but it was hard to do that. I wish I could but I'm with Chris and I'm going to stay loyal to him. I don't know really...Tony is here for me that's all that matters I suppose.

Chris is supposed to be the one that's here with me right now not Tony. I wish he was here to hug me and for me to hold me in his arms. I can't do this anymore all of this stuff I'm dealing with is just too much.

He lies to me and keeps me out of his business he isn't even loyal to me anymore. Before he was nice and then after that our relationship just went to rock bottom. I don't know if I love him more than myself because saying that word changes everything.

I wish he was here supporting me when I need him the most but he's just refusing to listen to me at all. I am so tired and not in the mood as I sit on the couch besides Tony sipping my cup of hot chocolate.

"How are you feeling now?" he says putting his cup down

"I'm alright I guess...." I say quietly

"Just know, that I'm here for you okay?" he says with a smile as he comforts me

"You don't mind me laying in your arms a bit it's quiet chilly now." I ask

"Sure..." he says as I lay in his arms

"I'm sorry what Chris told you it was so wrong of him to say such awful and terrible words to you, I can't imagine what you must be feeling right now." he says

"I care about you too and it's okay I'll manage, I just hate being that one who always is in the middle and has to choose. His really changed what I saw today it was like none other." I say calmly

Then I kissed him which was so wrong of me to do but I didn't care in this moment. I didn't think about Chris or anything other for that matter. What I was doing or what I am doing is so wrong but he's not here and he should be here with me to support me and be there for me, but his not.

"I'm so sorry..." I gasp

"No...uhm I...shouldn't have done that." he says looking away

"I wasn't thinking straight and for that matter, I'm so sorry..." I say realized what I've just done

"It's okay." he says chuckling

We then just looked at each other but we didn't say a word. I don't even know what his going to say to me or what his thinking right now.