Heart On The Edge

Chapter 26

ADARSH'S POV

'You are scared of the way I make you feel because you don't wanna feel anything'
She said. Why is that everyone we have a heart to heart conversation, her words just echo in my mind. My heart just shifts from his place a bit.

"Enough of analysing me ,Kashvi. The people of our country abused you, trolled you, threatened you, there is nothing left the for you that is good or positive. Then why do you stay?"

"Because its my Home, Adarsh!"

She said what she always says. She says it to convince me because....I don't even know why she wants me back.

"How many times have you chosen to sit in a burning house just because its home to you, Kashvi?!"

She gets silent. Her lips close and eyes widened and neck goes a little back. But then again, She's Kashvi, She hides it all.

"Perhaps, you should stay back here"

I made a sarcastic comment and turned my back towards her

"Every day since past 5 years Adarsh"

Her words stopped me. I looked back at her, I didn't understand what she said

"Pardon me.."

"Everyday for 5 years I chose to sit in a burning house because it was home to me."

There was a silence

"Why"

I couldn't helo but ask

"Why would you torment yourself like that?"

"Because of the very word you used. Because it was home to me. And I would abandon it. I don't abandon people or things I love!"

She taunted me. I ran my fingers through my hair and asked in frustration

"Why do you even want me back? We are just repeating history. With all the you have panic attacks, me cutting myself"

I say casually as this has happened before

"We totally are repeating history. Me trying to save you from yourself.."

She said firmly and yet in a very taunting tone.
I took steps closer her. I didn't touch here, I just looked into her eyes

"Not totally. If we were, You'd be getting fucked against that wall right now"

Her eyes widened, anger flashes in her eyes at my taunt. She knows I didn't say that to seduce her, Just to provoke her.
I step back from her.

"I do love my home Kashvi. But don't think for a second. I would come back. Even for you. I lost my mother, my innocence, my full life there. There's no way back."

I appeal to her listening side because I can see that she is not in mood of listening, she just wants to speak, convince me....but why?

She throws her arms in the air and scoffs

"Fine, I tried to show you the wrong of your ways, But as history has taught us, you never listen to me untill it's too late"

She says picking up her laptop from the sofa

"You know, just like, you couldn't be a better man until it was too late and I was engaged to another man who by the way has never even raised his voice at me"

She walks away, I hear her climbing the stairs. She knows the words that can peirce my heart.
I race to her and she turns back hearing my footsteps's sound. I make an eye contact as freeze her to her place on the stair. I don't touch her, I just step closer to her and let her step back till her back sticks to the wall.

"You are soo craftly with your words Wildcat. Almost as craftly you are in bed. Perhaps you are craftly with your mouth"

I wisper in a seductive yet taunty, angry voice.

"And let me tell you, I would show you how craftly I am with my....well everything if you weren't engaged to your Mr Beston-of-temperance. Don't push me Wildcat."

"Adar--"

"Perhaps if you want to save me from myself, Fuck me now and I'll come with you"

I throw a ridiculous offer at her. I knew she wouldn't take it.
She stared at me with utter disbelief trying to figure out if I was kidding.

"Come on Wildcat. We both know you want to. Tell me do want me touch you, touch your wetn--"

"Enough Adarsh"

Now I could irritatation. She understood I was kidding.

"Exactly, Enough Kashvi."

I don't wisper anymore. Instead speak with a clear voice.

"Mujhe India wapas aane ke topic pe phirse baat nahi karni."

I step back to give her space to go back to walking away from me.
I can't control myself around her. Even if I was kidding, I wanted her to say yes. I wanted to kiss her till her lips swell.
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Sorry for late update guys. Will try to update soon if you guys keep comment!

Radhe Radhe