The sun brings me comfort

Chapter 9: The Maknaes And Hobi

Hobi should have expected it to happen but he certainly didn't expect how it happened. He had become friends with the youngest brother within a day and he had his own time coming when the twins didn't suspect him coming and surprisingly the twins didn't suspect a single thing. He felt bad for keeping it a secret from them but Jungkook had begged him to not say anything since he didn't want the younger to get in trouble or get caught by his brothers he kept it a secret.

The day after Jungkook first met him he really didn't expect them to become fast friends as the younger brought a whole bag of chocolate chip cookies along with him and decided to share since Hobi was aparently nicer than the secret keeping twins. After spending time with Taehyung and Jimin he had learned more of playful banter and not really meaning some things such like sarcasm too but he was still new with the social interaction.

He was just happy he caught onto the non-seriousness of the younger's words or else he would have defended them whole heartedly. It was almost instant how fast they clicked though only over a few conversation topics and then when the boy offered him cookies he also learned that the younger declared him as his new hyung and friend and he was going to make it his mission to become his best friend.

It wad adorable to see the furrowing of his eyebrows with wide doe eyes and puffy cheeks bunching up trying to look serious but it only made him wish to hug the younger telling him how cute he looked. Jungkook didn't even have to ask if the twins gave him things too since he brought it up the next day saying he noticed some things going missing in the house especially food and unfortunately for Hobi he had now gained another giver.

To say he was shocked on how fast it all happened in simply 4 days was suprising but he was also at his happiest. Even with the fact that his father was still gone be never went to sleep with an empty stomach since all three boys managed to decide by themselves he had to eat and he couldn't say no. It was a strange feeling no feel so full and to see his stomach rising the slightest from the fullness.

The gifts ranged from food to sweets and his newly given possesion was something that he had to hold himself in for since if he let the scream out he had then he was sure they would have been highly concerned plus he had to follow his father's rules about not making too much noise but the soft object they gave him that made a hidden memory pop up in his mind made him wish he could hug the air out of the youngest of his new friends.

It was a plush toy, a pretty, brightly coloured soft plush toy. Jungkook apologized the moment he gave him it since he knew the older boy wasn't a baby and was probably to old for it but Hobi cut him off before he could apologize again and thanked him dearly with tears in his eyes. The soft horse like plushy was so soft and he didn't care about age or anything since it meant so much to him and he wasn't sure why.

It felt like something he had once like the bright purple and blue must have ringed a bell in his mind but it was too foggy to place the memory. Jungkook had told him that it was a secret gift he found when the maknaes were playing around where they most likely shouldn't have but he did wash it off with a cloth to make sure it was super clean for him since he wanted to give him a soft gift. He felt so thankful and wished the boys didn't give him so much things or else his heart would explode sooner than later and he could then hold back the guilt if they stopped.

It felt like he was given gifts for no reason and even if he appreciated it so much he also felt guilty knowing he couldn't give anything to them no matter how badly he wanted to. He had nothing to offer like the things they gave him and he really wanted to show how much he appreciated every single minute with them besides all the gifts they gave him since he loved their company much more than anything be could get.

He loved being their hyung, even if it felt like they knew each other for a long time he felt like crying with how they didn't get bored of him and didn't leave him sooner. They liked spending time with him and even if it made him feel guilty towards his father he really wished he could be their family to get swallowed whole into the warmth and love they radiate.

A family of 8....he wished he could be the 9th-

"No, it's selfish...so selfish" He shook his head breaking out of his daydreams as he sucked in a deep breath leaning forward to dig his fingers into the soft material of the plushy he named Mang before he held it tightly to his chest.

"Is it selfish Mang? Is it selfish that I want a family like them?" He stared at Mang and he expected the silence as a reply but he hugged the soft plushy to his chest again freely still feeling so happy there was still a few days left before his father would comd back. He hoped everything was going okay on that side with his father and he hoped he was safe but a small, really small part of him hoped he would extend his stay away.

Small....perhaps a bit bigger than small....

He had everything he could need to live comfortably, he had food, water, air, his sunlight, his blanket, his friends and everything else he had. His father didn't know it but he was so happy and it felt selfish to want to keep the things new to his life for much longer than he should.

"Okay....maybe I'm a bit selfish but it stays between the two of us right? I can share my secret with you though since you won't judge. I wish there was a way I could wear a mask and then be able to go outside...Father would allow that wouldn't he?" He let out a small laugh shaking his head as he closed his eyes letting the smile fall from his face.

"Yeah...maybe I am getting too lost in my dreams...I'm changing and I don't know what will happen in the end but it...it scares me" He confessed lifting his gaze to stare at the window where the light barely started fading out. All three his friends already came and went away but it all felt like a sweet dream at the end of the day when he sat alone but now he had Mang and he could cling onto the new reality for the smallest bit of time.

"Whatever happens will happen anyway...I just hope my father doesn't take my happiness away in the end....safety is nothing if it hurts so badly" He sighed as he leaned forward to pull the blanket over his legs cuddling Mang in his arm as he rested his back against the wall. He tugged the sleeves of his sweater -which he still refused to take off until he needed to when his father came back- over his fingers holding his free hand up to his face as he rubbed the soft material against his cheek.

At least he still had time...