Sitting on the soft mattress, that doesn't seem so soft anymore.
Keep smiling
Smiling and looking at the people around us as they talked excluding me completely, not that I care but I exist.
I fidget with my hands that are placed on my lap discreetly looking at my parents, we have been here for some times already.
Suddenly, this awkward silence takes over until the famous conversation where they include arrives.
'Sit down, don't make a sound, smile, be respectful.' I remind myself
This is how it works, every time...they ask me what class I am in, if everything is good in school if I have a boyfriend, and this is when my father speaks saying "We don't want a boyfriend, our main focus right now is our education. Isn't that right Celestia?"
And this is when I am supposed to reply "Yes it is Father" nodding.
And I smile again and keep on smiling until it's time to leave.
Smile.
Be respectful.
They are judging you.
They are looking at you, adjust your posture.
What if they are thinking that you are-
Suddenly my phone lights up, stopping my thoughts from running inside my head.
*new message*
Should I open it or not?
I don't know
This would be disrespectful.
I opened it anyway.
When I saw who this message was from I felt weird.
Why would he text me?
Where did he get my number from anyway?
We never really liked each other before, nor have we ever talked so his texting me is a whole new thing, hopefully a one-time thing too.
This year I think he matured. Sometimes he can be a real asshole... actually, that's all he is.
It's James.
James: hi
Hi? Jeez,
I replied with ^Hi^ too.
Good be dry with everyone dry to you.
Was he dry anyway?
I am not being dry, I am replying to his message.
You'll never be enough.
You
Will
Never
Be
Enough.
Where did this come from, I thought, closing my eyes and trying to shut these voices up.
'I can't talk right now, they would hear me so shut up because I know you are reading my thoughts' I thought aloud so these voices could hear me.
Loud enough I hope.
Am I crazy?
And here they are talking about me again, I heard them addressing me, I don't want to socialize.
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237 Days
RomanceThey never liked eachothers. At school James was the popular handsome guy, everyone loved him, to them James had not one care in the world, little did they know. Celestia had her group of friends which she hangs out with, she is known to be the perf...
