Enchanted- jj mccarthy [UNEDITED]

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When I woke up from my flashbacks I saw everyone looking at me. I didn't know what to do so I just sat up and hugged Rutger. Knowing that JJ's family saw me like this is something that I didn't want to happen. As we were sitting on the couch Rutger kept rubbing my back up and down to keep me as calm as possible. I looked up at him and his eyes were red and puffy. I instantly knew that he had been crying before I woke up, but he's being strong for me. Knowing this made me feel guilty and I wrapped my arms tighter around him.

We stayed like this for hours. I completely lost my appetite and I know that Rutger can tell that I'm withdrawing again. As we were in our hug I looked to the side and saw Luke looking at us. I opened my arms for him to join our hug. This is just as hard on him as it is for Rutger. As we were in our hug Luke's phone rang. He picked up when he saw that it was his brothers. He picked up and they were both worried about me. I'm assuming that Luke had kept them in the loop. Even though both Jack and Quinn called to have their weekly catch up with Luke they also wanted to make sure I was doing okay. Luke tried to get me to talk with them, but I wasn't in the mood.

Throughout the rest of the night all of the boys and JJ continued to try and get me to smile and join the conversation, but I have just withdrawn from everyone. I no longer see the need to rebuild and keep moving forward with life when everything gets ruined and goes back to square one.

When I looked around at everyone they all were looking at me concerned. Even though I was sitting on the couch I wanted to lay down and drown out the world with some music. I tapped Rutger's shoes with our code that we made. With the code he knew I wanted to lay back down and just have music playing. He handed me his airpods. Once I had both airpods in, I pressed play on my phone and put my head back in Rutger's lap. After getting comfortable I also put my legs over JJ's legs. As I was laying there Rutger was rubbing my head and JJ was rubbing my leg comfortingly. Since none of the boys had any practices or games we all decided to stay at the Mccarthy's together.

It was starting to get pretty late so everyone went to sleep. All of the boys were sharing a room while JJ and I were in his room. We were in bed, cuddling when I noticed JJ was asleep. I tried to fall asleep for multiple hours, but I had no luck. After multiple attempts I decided to go sit outside on their porch. I took one of JJ's hoodies from his room and also picked up one of the extra blankets in the room to bring outside with me. Once outside I sat down on the couch on the porch and started looking through my phone. As I was sitting outside the moon and the stars were really pretty so I decided to take pictures. I didn't realize how long I was outside for because I heard the front door open and close. I looked to my right and saw JJ groggily walking out towards me. He sat down next to me, pulled me into him and cuddled me.

"Princess how are you feeling and please don't try and tell me you're okay. I know you were just being brave because you don't want to worry your brother even more than you already have."

"I'm really scared J. I know how Rhett is and what he's capable of. I don't want him to hurt any of you and I know that if it comes down to it he will just get me back. This is how he is. He will keep threatening me and the people I love until I give in. If I do give in or if he get to me I will never make it out again. Either he will actually kill me or I will be so broken down that no one will recognize me."

When I looked down at JJ he was looking up at me and looked more worried than he already was. I didn't want to tell him this because I knew that this would make him more worried about me and I didn't want to add more to his plate because he's still in season and also focusing on preparing for the NFL draft.

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