Spare Love

25 | 𝘠𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘵

"Where have you been?" Briar walked towards me, more like a jog.

My heart skipped a beat, "WaEIsh-roOm." my voice cracked. She gave me a weird look before fluttering her eyes.

There was no way I was telling her. She would be all over me the entire time and asking questions like;

'I kNeW iT!'

'tElL mE mOrE!!'

'nO WaYy!!'

'I'm GoInG tO bE aN aUNt!!'

"Hello?" Briar was waving in front of my face.

"I'm hungry." I change the topic before ideas struck her head then grabbed her by the wrist and headed to the cafeteria.

Our ears were now filled with students chattering, laughing while mingling with their trays.

We look around to find an empty table but there were none, for some reason. Normally the caf doesn't get full by 12;49, but why is there more students than usual?

I jolt and hesitated for a moment but Briar was suddenly dragging me to them.

Shit. Why am I so nervous??

"Hey guys!" She yurps enthusiastically.

"Yolo!"

"Sup"

"Hey Bri." Why was his voice so deep and soothing.

"Hi sis!"

I turned too quick that I heard a crack inside my neck, "Hiii" I said sounding awkwardly.

I could see him from the corning of my eyes looking at me.

Me and Briar were now sat down beside each other, he was siting on the opposite end and as I could feel his stares, the urge to kiss him was tempting me. Briar pulls out her lunch from her bag while I pull out a notebook.

Everyone got back to talking again but it was suddenly quiet on our table. I look around and see all eyes were on me.

"Milly." I froze and looked at Kyle.

"I already ate." I smiled reassuring him but he did not look convinced one bit.

"Don't bullshit me!" he slams his hand on the table making everyone in the cafeteria quieting down.

I looked down my fingers fidgeting as my eyes slowly becomes blurry. I feel my heart beating loudly, but the feeling is more of scared and anxious.

It was still hard for me to eat. I only took 1 bite from the breakfast I made this morning but I got that sickness feeling and threw up in the garbage. I still couldn't do it, and I hate myself for that. Why did I think I could ever go back to school...normally..

"I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell-" I hear a screek from his chair which means he was getting up, but before he could come closer to me I stood up, grabbed my bag and left.

There was one thing I hated.

Being yelled at.

And everyone I'm close with knows that.

I wasn't yelled at without a good reason, though Kyle had a good reason but he didn't have to be a dick and yell it out in the cafeteria.

Not only am I ALREADY the talk in school but  now I'm gonna known as the girl who has eating issues. Screw this, I hate high school.

I was about to open the door to skip but someone grabs my wrist turning me back.

His brown eyes locked mine and I couldn't help but see myself the urge to hug him and cry it all out.