Well, I wasn’t expecting to be writing anything tonight, but here I am. I’m actually in a really good mood, or at least I will be until Leah goes to China in about five days. I didn’t tell anyone this but since Leah and I have been talking quite a lot since I met her on Wednesday, even though I know it’s only been two days, I started liking her fairly quickly, and I told her today. She said she felt the same, and I don’t really know how it happened, but I know it did, and I know I’m really happy. But as I said, she is going to China in five days. I don’t know if I’m going to be able to see her before she leaves and that’s potentially worrying. I mean, she’s going with Danny, who I haven’t told yet, considering it only happened about half an hour ago, but I’m sort of worried about his reaction. Because if he does actually still like her then I’ve ruined all of his chances with her, and he might hate me for that. I think it might be good though. She’s hopefully coming to a meet up I’m having with my friends from other schools, even though she won’t know anyone, which is really good of her. I really just want to see her again before she leaves, because I think I’m going to miss her a whole lot more than she realises. I’m going to miss Danny too, as well as everyone else I’m friends with that are leaving for five weeks. I know I can at least keep in contact with them though, considering I’ve already been and I know how it all works. I think that with Leah what I’m most worried about is that she’ll end up liking someone else while she’s in China for five weeks. I know it’s possible, even likely, but I really hope she just remembers me and remembers to email me too. Then again I don’t think I’ll be letting her forget it. Hopefully I can see her on Tuesday and everything goes well. I really think it could work.
Another good thing happened tonight. I made up with Annie. I said sorry. I know I’m selfish. I realised that this evening and I know it was my fault. She didn’t really overreact, I did. So we made up and we’re friends again. I’m really glad about that; I don’t think I could manage knowing that it was my fault she hated me, knowing that I made the mistake. I guess I still know that, but I think I can still try to make up for it as much as I can. I would’ve missed her greatly, and I’m glad I apologised. Annie really does mean a lot to me.
I think I should really be sleeping now. I have a Harry Potter Movie Marathon starting tomorrow and it’s almost midnight. I just want to say how glad I am that I decided to continue writing. It’s really helped me a lot. I think everything seems to be getting a lot better now that I have people I can trust again, and now that I’m more relaxed again. I know I still have a long way to go, and I know that school hasn’t even started back again, but I just feel better about myself now, and I know I always have the option to write everything down here and it doesn’t matter if people judge me, because it’s just a story after all.
-Anonymous
