I started writing a letter yesterday but I ran out of time. I feel really bad and overly emotional.
Yesterday a lot happened. Most of the day I just ignored her and she ignored me back. Later that night Tahnee and Annie walked in to the room, and Annie just said “She wants to make peace,” and so we did. I didn’t like her then and I don’t know if I do now or not. Everything has changed and I don’t know if I like any of it. Because there’s someone else. Of course there’s someone else. I hope no one has noticed that I’ve been talking to her as much as I have been. I’m not writing her name, in case she reads this. My problem is that Tahnee seems so natural around me again and I’m afraid I’ll fall for two at the same time. I think I’ve changed since coming here though. I have made so many friends, when I’m used to having hardly anyone, if anyone at all, to talk to and trust.
“She was just the pretty girl with the glasses,” he said. I’ve heard his side and I’ve heard her side. I’m not mentioning names. But he asked me what it’s like being with someone. I was so close to crying and now she’s talking to me and asking if he likes her so I just said yes, and so she just hopes that he realises that she doesn’t want to date him.
I don’t think people understand the depth of thought. Like for me, I think about everything at night, at home, and just cry. Everything gets to my head and I worry. Asking “what if” questions is going to stuff everything up.
