4.5
This is the worst day I’ve had so far. I know it’s only day five but I promise I don’t want it to get any worse. I think it will. This is all I’m writing for now. I promise there will be more later.
5
I guess leaving this place might be an ending but it sort of depends on what happens when I get back. And I don’t know what that will be. I don’t even know if I’ll still be writing by the end of this “experience”, but so far this isn’t at all what I was expecting. I’m not exactly sure what I was expecting but have troubles with girls definitely wasn’t it. Maybe the few who understand the pain and specifics care, maybe they don’t. But the people I was talking to last night, I’m counting them as friends. Especially John and Annie, both of whom understand, or at least seem to, and both of whom I trust. Then there’s Jane. The one who went and told everyone about Tahnee. I think she pretends to care, or maybe she actually does care but just has no idea about feelings, so I think she’s the main reason I’m not in a particularly good mood. Well, that and the fact that I told an outrageous amount of people, that amount being five, which is five too many… And so naturally almost everyone in the whole group knows, which is seriously not fun. So yeah I’m famous I guess, and everyone who says fame would be awesome is wrong. But I suppose it depends on what you’re famous for, but being famous for liking someone and having everyone know about it is not fun.
