The Psychopath's Heart | JEON WONWOO

22.First Time

The atmosphere was silent and awkward. After what Mia had said, they both didn't know what to say. Her therapist had looked at her with wide eyes. She was shocked into what Mia had told her even though she just said that it was alright, she didn't need to fear into what she had to say. But now that she did and the way she reacted, probably made Mia uncomfortable.

Mia, herself, was truly shocked about what she had confessed out loud. In this moment specifically she wasn't in her right state of mind and she couldn't control what to say anymore. Yet, coming back to this place made her feel as ease in some sort that she felt that whatever she would say wouldn't be laughed at or anything similar to that matter. But there they were, one being embarrassed and the other was just mocking her by her reaction.

It was beyond her imagination that Mia would say something like ever to her. She had always dreamt that in these 5 years of working with her, one day Mia would be open up and speak about what she felt. About anything. But this was totally different than planned. She couldn't get herself to speak because of how shocked and honestly confused to what Mia had confessed.

Mia had bent her head down while covering her face with her two hands to hide the embarrassment and how angry she was into letting go of her emotions. She knew she shouldn't have come and ask for help. It would make the situation weirder and it did. While she was feeling abashed, her therapist kept looking at her with confusion on her face. She didn't know what to say exactly until she saw how Mia was starting to shake her leg. Which was a sign she was in discomfort and was not at ease.

She opened her mouth to say something but she couldn't seem to get the words out. Knowing how she felt, she didn't know if she should feel happy for her or sorry for her. This was probably her first time liking someone in her life so it was normal that she felt a bit uncomfortable talking about it but, what made her worried was that, she wasn't the only one, Wonwoo as well had some little feelings for her.

Maybe it was a good thing that they both liked each other but what if something happens and it breaks Mia's heart? It could make Mia bring back her cold walks once more and it could take forever to have her open up and be more social around others. It could be risky.

What scared her the most was Wonwoo what he had said when he confessed, he would take that risk.

It made her angry but it wasn't her life to control but rather Mia to take hold of. She was only there to either give advice or be a shoulder to cry on.

She put her lips into a straight line and just sighed deeply with realisation that this wasn't her to make a decision but rather Mia to. She was only her bodyguard to protect her from anything that could hurt her but she couldn't tell her what to do and it was killing her inside. Yet, it is what it is.

"It's normal you feel like this Mia" She said to her with absolute calmness in her voice, trying to grab Mia's attention. Once she spoke, Mia had lifted her head from her hands and looked at her with wanting to understand what she meant by that.

"It's what you call a crush Mia and it's your first so it's normal you feel this way." She gave her a small smile to show her that nothing was wrong with what she said.

Mia titled her head because she didn't understand and her therapist had chuckled a little. She then spoke with a calm voice.

"Sometimes in life, you feel a specific way towards a person into which you might like being around with or either admire from a far. What you feel is normal because we all feel that, several times in our life. Some of them good and some of them are bad. Some are happy and some are sad. It's what you call a crush. What you are feeling, is exactly that Mia. You feel shy because you haven't experienced this feeling yet and it's okay to feel shy."