I MARRIED A PSYCHO [The Eligible Bachelors Series]

Chapter 66

Warning: This story may not be suitable for a very young age due to some unscripted words...

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VLANCE

=FLASHBACK=

"Duke, you know what? Now, I understand why you always want to keep everything perfect. That is because, you want the people you love to be proud of you. It's scary to think that you don't deserve the person you love to be proud of you because you know on the first place, you have nothing to be proud of. You are ashamed of yourself because they are too good, too perfect for you who is just a junk of failure. You're afraid you might be a disgrace for them. You're afraid to dirt their reputation because of that."

Now, I have come to fully understand him. I was never like this before. I was always wreckless and I don't care what other people think or say, I was never trying, I do what I want without considering the posibility of consequences. But when I realized I was falling inlove with him, I had changed. I feel like I should do better not only because I want to make him to be proud of me but I want to save him from the cruel world where perfection is the standard.

Since we were kids, Duke had really work very hard building that quintessential structure of dignity like of a marvelous art of stone stack formation but then there was me; I just appeared in his life out of nowhere, Toppling only single stone with a flip of my finger until everything went shattering, leaving nothing, even a single stone. No matter what I do, I just can't avoid not to get him involve with me. I always just end up smearing my dirt to his prestine dignity. No one is respecting him anymore and that is because of me.

How about an annulment? Would that be enough to put all the humiliation he had to go through to an end.

"If you're talking with the Duke you know from the past, I'd probaly say you are right. But you know what, Vlance? When I met you, I realized that my belief were all wrong."

"You're the one who thought me that failures are just normal. What is not normal is when you continue to think of yourself that you are a failure."

"I hate my old self- the stupid perfectionist. He's is hilariously toxic"

Oh, Duke!

This can not be happening.

Kung patuloy siyang magkakaganito because he thinks, as a husband, and that it is his duty to side on me, this wont bring any good to him. Pagtatawanan lang siya ulit ng mga tao at baka mapahamak lang siya lalo.

Hindi ako makatulog dahil naghihintay ako ng balita tungkol kay Cholo. I'm waiting for Ellie's update dahil umaasa ako para sa magandang balita. He said, he will wake in no time, any soon, but up until now, there were no any good updates about him. Nag-aalala na ako.

Biglang tumunog ang phone ko kaya mabihis kong kinapa sa bedside table pero nadulas sa kamay ko kaya dahan-dahan akong bumangon para hindi magising si Duke. Agad kong hinanap sa ilalim ng kama ang phone, hanggang sa may ibang bagay ang nahagip ng kamay ko.

It's a pen. I was Duke's pen. I drop this thing a long time ago and I just found it now.

Itinabi ko ang bagay na 'yon sa kabilang kamay ko at muli kong hinagilap ang phone sa ilalim ng kama.

I felt my hand which was holding the pen, had pressed something and then I heard a voice.

"Duke, it's my first time doing this."

Napakunot ang noo ko. Isinantabi ko ang paghahanap sa phone ko at saka tinitigan ang pen na hawak ng kabilang kamay ko.

There was a date on as it when it was being recorder. The date was the same date when we had our first night of intimacy. Of course, I will never forget that day.