𝑰𝑵 𝑬𝑨𝑪𝑯 𝑶𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑹'𝑺 𝑬𝑴𝑩𝑹𝑨𝑪𝑬𝑺 ( 𝑽𝑴𝑰𝑵𝑲𝑶𝑶𝑲)

My life...It's miserable

"I'm sorry to force you to have your first kiss like that Tae." Jungkook was concerned genuinely.

"I should thank you instead. " Taehyung softly smiled at Jungkook. He was still holding one of Jimin's hand in his. Didn't want to let it go yet. His heart still wanted to being warm in that feelings of Jimin's lips.

Jimin was looking at their joined hands. He didn’t know what he was feeling. He wanted to wrap Taehyung's lips in his again and again. Wanted to feel those butterflies in his whole body.

"Um...Can I ask you why? "

"Why what Jungkook?"

"Why are you thanking me. I thought you will kinda get upset or angry on me? Also you said it was your first kiss. You never kissed anyone! Why?"

Taehyung let Jimin's hand go finally sighing. He sat on the bed. He knew it was the time to let them know.

"I- I've always been in tough environment Jungkook. Loosing both of my parents never did anything good for me. I lost them at early age. Then g-grew up in - in some s-shitty place. I got- I got beaten up everyday, even if it wasn’t my fault. They didn’t g-give me food for days. I don't know how many nights I laid on the floor without sleeping a bit. I was diagnosed with insomnia. You know, w-when I was just 15, I started to do part time jobs. I was a minor. It was hard to find a part time job. But I had to do multiple. But I still wanted to live, wanted to leave that hell.

I-I didn’t have anyone by my side. Jin hyung was there in school when those b-bullies mentally tortured me too. But he also disappeared suddenly. I was alone, lonely.  I n-never got to l-love someone. Or you can see, I never had that kind of privilege to like or love someone. I didn’t w-want to bind someone with this shitty life of mine."

There was unshed tears on Taehyung's eyes. Till now, he hanged his head low. He didn’t have that courage to look into their eyes. He was an unlucky bustard, who could easily make the other person's life a hell too. In these 3 months he never told anyone anything about his personal life. He didn’t want to. He was happy only to have these new people in his life.

"I'm happy that, my -my first kiss is you Jimin. I never wanted to do it with anyone I don't know. Cause you are my best friend, one of the best person in my life. I'll always be grateful to you."

The time he looked up, Jimin was already there hugging him like if he let Taehyung  go, he would vanish in the thin air. Jimin's tears dropped on Taehyung's forehead and cheek uncontrollably. Taehyung hugged him back rubbing his back soothingly.

"J-Jimin..."

"Why didn’t you say a word about it Tae? How could you hide this much pain from me! You said, I'm your best friend. What kind of best friend don't know other's pain. You couldn’t trust me that much?" Jimin was sobbing.

"No jiminie.. Please. Don't say that. You know, I will never bind somone with my sorrow.  I - I adore you a lot. I don't want to make you worried for me even a bit. I really am ok with you and Jungkook being in my side." Suddenly he remembered, they weren’t alone in the room.

'Where's Jungkook'

Taehyung didn’t hear any sound from Jungkook.  So he raised his head to see if Jungkook was there. He moved his eyes from Jimin's shoulder only to see Jungkook backfacing him, looking outside of the room through the glass walls. His hands were in grips as like he would kill anyone at this moment.

Taehyung wasn’t able to see his facial expression, but he was sure Jungkook was either crying or he was beyond angry.

"Jungkook....." He whispered.